♏.Prada

Exhausted .

" If a guy,shout in front of you that he chosen his buddy instead of you . You should leave him . "

What he told me last night was strike my dream away. You know , being like a silence fool for fews months even a year , this experience told me that I should self-protection.

I trust people easily . He told me he will change but he never do . He doesnt feel guilty when he text or flirt with another girl. Lolx. radiculous . I am damnfound.

I cried the whole night . How many times I tell myself , This is what you chose , face it and solve it. Break up doesnt means anything , Spm is much more important than the jerk. But, Tears dash out uncontrol. I felt sad .

Boo .... Zhi YiNG, Stop ruining up urself. Forget him and get a better one . well.. I tried . I have no mood to continue blogging .

Sad quotes

My heart is taken by you , broken by you and now is in pieces because of you .

It's hard to tell your mind stop to loving someone if your heart still does.

How could an angle broke my heart, They he can't catch my falling star? I wish I didn't wish so hard.Maybe I wish our love apart

A teardrop is insignificant in a pool of water, but it can touch a soul as It runs down on my face.

Love can tear you apart..It can kills you .. But, if you luckly, it can put u togather.

How do you heal a broke heart ? I have no idea where to start because everything I do reminds me of you .

Ask me how many times my heart was broken. I will tell u look at the sky and count the stars.

Maybe one day I will tear away a part of me and let you go.

Love arrives at tip toes , but it bangs the door when it leaves. Better never have to meet you than to wake and reach my hands that you are not there.

Love is the hardest drug to quit , but it is harder when it takes away .

The only person who can make you stop crying is exactly the one who makes you cry.

Love is a delusion that a lady and a man differs from another.

There is a pain I often feel which u never know because it is absence of you.

I knew in reality that we can't be togather. I close my eyes and you right here with me ... In my dreams you are mind forever.

I am tired .



Holding, Grapping , Snatching or even Protecting ? I don't know.

Heaps of rubbish I did.



Helpless eventually. Like a crazy and insane , Shouting here kicking the vacum , But , Still ignore you . What the fucking u doing now! Chong Zhi Ying! U keep telling urself u ARE THE BEST! But, u just act like a fool . Had u ever seen crazy !? Yea. U just look alike with them just now. U knew Even tough U keep calling him or u crying , hysterically .. He still the same. Look at his sibling, Look who is his new victim . Zhi Ying, I should slap u . Until U wake up . Please , Be smart once ok !?



Ur dad saw u the way , He is pain for u . See, How stupid u are! U let him worry about u . Please treat urself good . Love urself. He isn't the guy u wan . U knew it, U told urself many times. But, Y u stil doing the same thing.

Please , Don't cry . Hm.. I would like to say that I expeled by school. Lolx . Yea. This is the truth . I told many of my friends and they give a a " Unbelieveabole" Expression . Actually, this is not a kind of expelsion . I thought.

I was beyond the limit of absence school. Yea , I showed the letter before in my blog . Then , school asked my to stop going to school after friday . I mean 16th oct 2010. Anyway, the form I signed is written down " voluntary to stop school " Yea . I saw that.

Sound kinda funny. I did something rude in principal's office. Fight. But, until now, I didn't tell anyone even though him. I can remember that day made me fell very upset. Well . That is past tense.

Woo! I am going to OMEGA now. Feels bored. Lolx.
After I recovered from the heavy fever . I just realised that , My body is such that weak , Like a peice of toufu . Even more weaker than that. I can't simply eat thing or drinks. For example , I ate " Wan Tum Mee' add with " Wan tum " . I fallen sick , because the soup that contain a lot of pepper . See! Again , I drank the ice lemon tea , Within fes hours. My body became hot and feverish . I think of the Ice ? I don'y know. I ate medicine and herbal . Sigh .

Yesterday , I ate ice cream . LOLX. And I was in hospital listening the doctor nagging me because I ate too much ice cream . I can remember my stomach was clamp .Ouch! Pain !

Haiz... Start from thursday . I was fallen ill until now . It is just a small fever but I am energyless . I feel like , I need sleep . But , My back is pain .

I am not going to meet the doctor , I hate doctor! I hate medicine . I hope I can heal by myself . Anyway , It is doesnt seem help me much . Maybe I can have a herbal . Yup.

my body became weak after I kept fit . And now, I am going to . But , It is hard. I just start my journey couples days , I fell ill . Look! Haiz..

And, He didn't care of me . I called him just now, we have been 2 days didn't talk . Just because his damn stupid and boastful fren . Watever , Break up then break . Sigh , Buddy , Do you tried b4 , when u talks to someone meant important to you and you cant even get into the conversation with him . The conversation yboth of you had just , as we called " Chui Sui."

Both of you not talking about what you had done , What the surprise you have today and your feeling about ur surrounding . You were gossiping , bluffing and boasting . Yea , I am sure you tried , nor your gf / bf but your friends. They just don't wanna to have a deep chat with him . He don't want to share your burden with you .

I am telling the truth , " IF YOUR BF IS LIKE THIS , JUST BREAK UP !" Don't give him any chances , because he doesnt appreaciate you .

Owh . I felt tired and run down. I am so dissapointed to u . KEN CHAU . I knew you . Don't lie to me anymore. Haiz. Girls , I HAD discover the best foundation that IS the best foundation which promoted by the famous Show in Taiwan .

It belives that it wills helps any type of faces , Dry or Oily . It can help you have a WELL MAKE UP . Ok , I dont describe the much , Search Lancome wed and type "Teint Miracle foundation" You can found the magic. I have an problem . I don't know wat he thinking ? I had an quarrel with him last nite when he came back from INFI. Well, I don't even know that isnt he was in INFI anot.

Anything he talked or told was doubtful for me. So, I didnt pay much attention on it , yea, our relationship. It is more like a cheat or a love . Am I too suspicious ? Yes , I am .

Haiz ... Well , I am fine again with him . Ken Chau .

I told myself the billion times for not to chat with him even forgive him . But, I failed . I forgave him last night and he gave me a deep kiss .

OMG . But, He is still in " Observing period" . I dont trust wat he talking and talked . Maybe it is a type of self-protecting. He lied me so many times. And the fucking Michelle . Damn, if she still contact with my boy , sure I insane again. It is nearly 11pm . Yea , I am still waiting his call . Time by time. I dumped my BOOKS . Because I miss you so much .

I think to change my blog link . Then you cant view any thing I wrote. But, I knew you never read my blog . Haiz.. I am so sad .

Ken , Where are you ? Please . Come back . I am here wait so hardly and almost death . Omg. Suddenly , I felt sad . With cares of Xiao Phang , I feel guilty and sin . I lie to him . I said I am fine . I told I forgot Ken Chau . But, actually , Thing doesn't like wat I spoken. I am damn bad situation .

I cried just now in my bed room . I locked myself inside the room and keep calling him . He didn't pick up my call because he was changed his number. He gave me once but I forgot it , I told him that no to change because I can't remember any else's number except for 0165627233.

I think , his number is for his new gf ? Who knows? He needs the easy Prepaid for calling who ? His gf , maybe. 90 % ... I am speechless nowadays and silence.

I hate him , but the more I love him . I cant put him down . I can't!!! I told myself to be tough! to be strong! There have still a month to SPM , I must be revision . But , When the light on , I cried. When the song flow, I became hysterical. How useless am I.

This morning in school , he din even stared me . Yes! He had. He used the " Disgust" glaze forward to me . Yea, I knew .I am damn stupid dumdfound. Right ? I am waiting his call all the time . I checked my missed call box, Received call box. But , I can't wait his call . I knew he is gone. Yea, His heart is gone for long time , But, I am still .

Ken , where you have been ? How are you ? Do you know I miss you freakly? You dun noe . You are enjoying your new single life. soon you have a new gf or flirt gf ? Who knows. Dun worry, I won't disturb your life anymore. I am trying to giving you UP .I can do it , because I love so much .
Today , I experienced stomach ache seriusly in school . I ask for going home and I looked for the teacher who in charge with monitor .

Yee mun helped me a lot . She dun care wasting her time to accompany me to find the teacher. Thank you so much .

I called my uncle and he said he was coming right now . I was standing there about 1/2 an hours and he seem doesnt show up . I thought that I wanna dial to my aunt who maybe will come earlier. But , I cant remember her number no matter how I think about for.

So I decide to find that guy and asked him because he always remember my stuff. I went upstairs and reached my class. Mr.Hew 's lesson. Damn .

He told me that he was forgot and he scold me out of sudden ! Damn you . Within fews minutes , Mr Hew asked him to talk slowly and gently. I cried !

Maybe I am too nervous where were my uncle or just angry ? Angry about him . And everyone were staring at me! How shameless. Finally, Mr.Hew lend me his Phone , 5800XM. Damn! Same model with me again . Luckily my phone gone so long .

I saw Mr.Hew face like xxxxxxxxxxxx . I think that he is angry ? Maybe. IDK . Watever . I wont ask for going home if I knew that my mom doesnt in home that day.

Tired . And I am fallen ill now. I am managed my feeling as well.

I called him last night and his phone was closed . I hardly believe that he got his new number yesterday without telling me anything . I always be the last position in his mind . Zhi Ying. U knew deeplythis is not what you need and want but why you still get in to this relationship ?

The messy situation that I can't facing it . I hope to call him , I wanna make thing clearly but I knew he will not answer my call eventually . I made a lot of story in my mind , Protesting him and cover him .

I love him tough , he doesn't . He didn't for long time , maybe. I understand wat he stand for the "single' . He knew I must hystericaal after I saw it and keep blowing his phun out.

I lost everything . I even sacrified my dignity and honour . Begging and pleasing him not to leave. I ignored everyone's advice , I pretend we are fine . I make out I am his dear . But , when everything wake you up . You found that yourself is dumbfound even more cheap.

Ken , I have no efforts to hate you . I don't know how to put you down like I did last time . , My desire was so passionate . I hope you come back but all of I wish is just a dream . I knew it well .

Well , I saw his relationship status in Facebook. It is hurtful when I saw it , It feels like shock and speechless . A lot of suspicious linked to my brain . A lots!

I don't know wat to do right now . I am revising my Account actually . Nevertheless , Tears drops down frantically . I cant find a way to express , calling Sandra ? No , I dun wan to disturb her anymore, I dun wan my dear fren to worry about me . I just , Just cry and be alone .

I dun noe wat to do next . ask him or ..?? I have no idea . I cant cover my sorrow in front of him .Why he did it to me!? Wat's wrong !? Maybe he is thinking that "Everything is wrong with zhi ying , she never be right!" I dun noe??

"Single" Woww! Congraz.. Ken , Yea, U successfully destroy me . Grin * I am damn fucking angry now!
Who the hell scold me in facebook!?
And when I told him he did greatz job that time! Who the hell make out that his idea is rubbish?

Excuse me , I din and I did think your idea is great! FUCK YOU!

It is obviously that you playing with me lorh . You knew my temper , and You are not seen b4! I DIN SAY THE THING AND YOU SAID THAT I DID IT!

FUCK YOU!

The thing Make me I dun buy the damn shirt is that someone keep giving opinion ! And I had no participate in it! This is the reason Y I dun buy!

Shit on it!
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