♏.Prada

 This is last post of this blog , Yea, I do meant to drop this blog ! Bye bye . Because I knew the guy wont gonna turn back to me and so do I. 


 This blog start with the happy and joyful , and me, too . End with the happy and joyful . Yea, no more he is meant anything to me. GOODBYE, My dear bloggie. 

 Well, it is the first day and the second day of chinese new year. Well , consider exciting new year for me, it is totally different with the pass years. LOL! I was had fun ! Ii do really enjoy the moment when we were dancing and threw all the worries away! 


 LOL. seriously, I have no photos uploads because the photos we took yesterday was horny, some sort like that. It is not me. You know, I was surprised when I got conscious back , and looking at these photos I just taken down . So what!? I smoke, I drink , I flirt with guys but it doesnt means I am such a naughty girl right ? I didn't took drug wert!  I knew where the limits is . I will play a pause when it needed . 


 Lol .I can't forger the moment in voodoo , wish I have hanging out with those clubbing kaki next time. By the way , I was so mad about today being happy in barroom . Damn ! I just don't hang with the guy anymore. But then , we still have snooker in Infi to be my back up ! 


 My first ever time of snookering was soo fun ! Kinda exciting, but at least I knew how to snooke it , not poke it. Laughing. 


 Wish I can have a better year, full of new year mood , wakakka. About that guy ?? Owhh ,I forgot who is him , because I knew someone better than him is waiting me to say yes . LOL. ZhiYing, Don't cry . it is a really tough moment for you. dont cry , it is ok to do that . well , everything is normal , it doenst gone out the line. ok ? It is your wish from the begin , dont cry , no tears  , ok !? keep that, it is not a crying season ,you cant cry today . you cant.  Hey . bloggie, such a long time didint touch you , how are you . *I am crazy 

 Well, new year eye was just past 5 hours ago , due tothe connection problem , I can only online now, it is already 5.30 am , I don't think I am going to sleep , because my family still have a big celebration are going. Well, let's talk about TMnet 


 damn ,! It had been a heavy rain yesterday and I could barely remembered the horribly lighting, Wow! after that, My line was lost!Totally lost connected for the whole day , damn! And because the working hour are off , I had to wait until tommorrow, means monday and that I can only call TM to fix my cable! 


 Shit! I am dying to on9 , luckily my Laptop are still functioning, I MISS NET 99!


 Well, I went shopping today in parade, wakaka. hmm , details gonna upload on next post. LOL.


 HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!! WOW!!!  been a big big clean home , tiring , but fun!!! Tmr and tue gonna go to hae, anyone feeling to join ? lol , kidding, well , have a fortune year! LOVE YOU GUYS  I was watching drama today , and suddenly I thought of something . Something bother me for so long time,  In this moment, I don't think love is important for me. I still have a lot of stuff that I haven't try out. I shouldn't attached to one guy that hurt me so much. 


 Maybe I am tiring to wait him back , For so long time , I had been chasing him at his back and he used to a step forward than me. :( I deserve better , I meant, I deserve more .


 So stop dreaming . Ok ? You don't have to be sad anymore just like what you did few months ago , living in a happy mood, cheerish and joyful ! Zhi Ying, the meeting are meant nothing to you , ok ? Don't be over mad at him . He is just a old friend for you , maybe you are meant nothing to him , not even a friend. You got your life to move on . 


 I think I am not going to the gathering , not keen . I dont want to meet him . Anymore. I feel so sad and scare when I see him . I feel like the whole world gonna collapse. I am stupid like that. sorryy .

 I admit that, I never dumped him , I meant mentally . In this missing period , I think of him again, especially the melody goes with the mood , it kills me. I wish I can call you and tell you how much I love you. I wish I can telly you my worries , my sadness, happiness, everything ! But, it just merely a wish .


 I dream of you every night, and I woke up heart broken . I thought I am healed , I am overcame the sorrow you left over , but , it just like a boom , explored as it wished. When it did, I felt like dying. Sigh , I really tired of this ! Why I cant just be more smart !? To be forgetting you in a shortest period.


 Dear , can I call you like this ? SMH. I knew someone took over the position . And the game over, I should have to say " Good game "  and  "Bye" . But what the hell I am doing ? I am standing in the waiting list, wishing t to have our second chance to play. Sigh.


 The game is obviously don't suitable to you , and you are not qualified to take part. don't you get that? It is simple like 1 2 3 , and you make it complicated like add maths. What's the points for !?


 I knew how much he can affected me . I knew deeply I can never be forget him because the love we had was really amazing ! I can never forget ! I can't able to forget ! We were happy , we were loved each other very much , we were had our palace , but when ? when the things changed so worst and I don't even realize ? Is there I forcing him to his studies ? Is there I had another guy to be with me ? Is there his friends asking him to choose between me and them ? When ? I had no idea.  We were sweet ! And even they said so . We were so so sweet . How could it be just so forgetful. We suppose like a husband and wife. we supposed. right ?


 It might have been we don't fight , and I can belong to you forever. I don't want to break up with you . I don't . I don't want. Santa  , Please send him back to me. okay ? I beg you , I beg you . Please. I am feeling sad all the time , we were born for each other, we meant to be each other right ? 


 Lord, I promised I will be a good girl now, I won't flirt , I won't date new guy, I won't make comparation , I will be a good girl , a good children ,please, Can I have him back ? I won't be like a proudly girl , I won't look down at anyone else, I just want him , Just him . How could you bear to send away them from me ? I got nothing after all .  You are killing me . You are murdering me .


 I need you now , want you badly . I don't mind people scolding me slut , I just want you .  I lost my heart,  can you give back to me ? You had taken the part of it , and why you don't return to me ? You can't be that selfish . You promised me you won't love any girls except me. You said you wont letting me tears . You said  You Love Me ! So What now ? Is that all lies ? I don't believed you are kinda person . Don't push me far , please. 


 I love you ! Since the time I met you again . I knew the feeling are strong ! I am not sure about you, But for me , I don't want to belong to anyone , I just want be yours. If I cried a thousand days , as a trade to let  you come back , I will do . If I can do a thousand pasta , can let you come back , I will do . If I would say housand times of sorry can let you turn back , I said. Please, don't push me away.I want to hug you .


 I am sorry for the past that part of I did wrong. I could make them correct now, but , I will do better in my future. I know I am not a good girl . I am proud, lousy , rude, flirty , naughty , annoying whatsoever. I won't make the same mistakes anymore. I did that just because I want your attention ! I want you to scold me so I could felt your cares. I want to bawl at me and said that ' I AM YOUR BF SO YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO ME !"  My method wrong, I am not a intelligent, I used my way to love you , is that wrong ? I don't understand at all .I just want you to love me, is that so hard to you ? I don't want any feed back or rewards from you , my love are selfless . And what I want is one thing - your love. 


 Dear.. I missed you so much .So much that I cant predict! I wish to hear you. wish to see you. I am never stop missing you since apart with you. I buried my sadness so other cant see, because , I want you to happy , so do I. I LOVE YOU. I DO . 


 Well , I just attend the drving license test just now which conducted by JPJ . Sigh , I failed .


 I forgot to bring my L license to go . So , I had to wake my sis up and asked her to bring it to me. I waited her in MCD with a cup of hot coffee . After she reached, she could brought me to the Sri Perak learning Centre . Well , I kinda late to be there. There are crowded with candidates , I went with a Chidian who I just got to know her there. Both of us are Retake candidates , after registered , we went to the Pondok to wait our turns. We were actually have the prior to take test but according to the examiner , we have to wait!


 There was a cloudy day . The weather were nice and cold . There was a women who was driving about to three pointer , and suddenly her car was rush over on the corner , the whole car was about to knock off the building nearby . Everyone was shocked , the examiner was shouting "Henti Henti !" And us, candidates were laughing at the women , either me.  She got to get down from the car immediately , and she was considered a danger driver right now. The moment was funny ! I was laughing non-stop , bad me .


 And it was my turn to drive to the slope. I did well as I did , And it gotta to the side parking , I did very carefully before I turned in and went out from the box. And I did successfully ! But when it came to the three pointer, I knew maybe I was too late to turn in to the box , so when I tried to get out from the box, my car touched the white lines , therefore I failed.


 The most shameful moment is that the JPJ asked you get down from the car immediately , Aww.. It is really killing me! Before I left, the sir said goodbye to me and he added on "SEE YOU NEXT TIME" MOTHERFUCKER!


 I got to my car and my sis brought me to Pizza Hut , this can be treated as a consonant . Whatever!
OLD