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Stepped to reality world
Wednesday, March 31, 2010 | 6:20 AM | 0 comments
We Had been spent our teenhood in primary school, from the naive kids who naughty n til now, we mature , n became the little adult. It has been 17 years we knew the world little by little, and now, We gained knowlegde n experiences. Somebody is saying, sweet 16 , recall to the past, I'm form 4. It is quite bitter. It is much more sweet 15 . wiped my tears , start all over again . Alone is the singal of brooding, Lonely is surrouding , somemore, the heart need sumone to cure. It doesnt anyone stand by me. Times pass , everything was gone. Memorize will b the treasure. I hope I'm a little girl ... forever Forward to A-level
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The General Certificate of Education (Advanced Level), or A-Levels, which is the ¡®gold standard¡¯ of Cambridge International Examinations (CIE) qualifications. It has exactly the same value in admitting students to all universities as its The Cambridge A-Levels is a staged assessment where the AS Level and A2 papers may be taken in separate sessions. Candidates sit for the AS Level after the first 9 months of the academic calendar and the A2 Level at the end of the following 9 months to achieve the full A-Levels. Normally, only 3 subjects are taken; occasionally, exceptional students will take four subjects. Because i did not pick up 'A' Levels, it is not fair for me to assess how difficult is this course. However, according to some of the my friends who studied this course, 'A' Levels is considered as the most difficult Pre-University course in the world. Certain effort and determination are required in order to complete this course. The A-Levels examination is set and assessed by the The fee of study for A-level is quite not effort for my family's financial . It unless 10000 to future this course , I have to take a break n think what I wanna to be after I step to reality. I fear of working , I fear of be adult , I hope I can be student n study , on9 like now forever. But , it is just my hope , summore it is just a dream. Impossible my dream will come true , bcz my family not that wealthy. So I have to decide wat n which career i will be choose for my whole life. I cnt waste any one cent of my dad 's money . I do really need a lot of advice now ! Nevertheless, I will study hard to achieve my 8A in my mid year term exam , It is the only way to guarantee I will maintain my standard . So , bloggie n compie! I will dump off u ! n walk to reference book hug! Oral presentation
Tuesday, March 30, 2010 | 8:19 AM | 0 comments
I had my oral presentation today , It is the marks for the Spm. U noe how many marks I got 1 Just 21! I was wat the fuck when I received the paper n I sign it. I whacked my book n said " wat the hell fuck !? i JUST GOT THE 21 % !" Quenn was foggy n she ask me Y I got so low marks.damn ! fine! It is ok for me. I cn get my high marks in my paper too! Shit! How unfair it is!? The stupid person who din memorize the oral n just read the sentence in front of her n they cn get 25 or 26 mraks ! wat the hell of us who memorized it very well n talk fruently? It's definately unfair for us! wat a suck oral presentation ! let got fuck off ! Monday, March 29, 2010 | 8:57 AM | 0 comments
My bloggie catched the idoit hacked SO MANY TIMES! So I would like to make sum characteristic tat specific to my blog. Indeed , it is copy rite from zhi ying .Ok… Let’s talk abt it.. n mayb sum of u saw this post can try my way out! I would like to share with u all ~Ok …. Firstly , my blog should have a lot of photo to my introduce to a post. for Example , The next , every of my photo must have a label of me .. Like ..zhiying or sweetsister.. whatever… it must be downside the corner. Or the space of middle of the photo. Example. Impossible my photo have no label at the. TAT MUST BE FAKE~! Lolx..sumtimes I will use a short sentence to complete my post with telling my mind. N tat must be in the left hand side of the corner too... Lolx.. Anyway, enjoy my blog.. truely ... hope all of u cn leave comment... I fully came bek !
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Lolx.. dear follower.. I’m so happy u still view my blog although I abandone my bloggie so long time. But yet, I will pick it up n keep blogging to tell u my recent.Recenlty , I was focus n concentration on my study. I put 100 % of my concentration on my revision. I hope I cn achieve my goal in my next term exam.. N the next thing is, I wanna keep fit .. Lolx.. I’m damn fat now~! I cnt oblivios my appearance anymore , so the next is.. keep fit n get bek to my slim body . Yeah! Every approaching to the SPM exam, all of the teachers is nervous than us, A lot of stay bek class is held . n I got my stay bek in wed n thrus for my chemistry n physic. Ok, I’m getting ok for my physic ! Lolx.. The next thing is,, I saw a fren’s blog today. He is one of the top student of perak. I heard of him frm Ken,. He is fabolous in study. Lol.. He showed out his result in his blog.. All of them was 70++ excepted the Chinese. How fabulous ! That is the result I wanna get in my every exam. The surprise for me is, he got his MT in 90 marks. But I just got 78.. wat the big contrast of samtet n shing chung. It is suck …I means,… stupid shing chung … I aren’t talking about the Mr.Hew was useless , it is my prob ..I knew tat.. But,I’m stating the stupid situation n noisy surrounding of my class. The 5sc3 attitude seem nt like a “science classs” supposed to have. Bt anyway , I try hard to get wat I wanted. Ugh .. hectic life is coming to me.. but I like this… I had been long long time din blogging!
Saturday, March 27, 2010 | 7:04 AM | 0 comments
I love my bloggie so much ! I miss U a lot! Finally, I get bek to u again ! LolxIn cc now for my blogging. Lolx... Peeps! I love u all! So I would like to decribe my result for the 1st term march exam . I tot it wil b suck , bt it turns up quiet nice n I cnt imagine I cn pass my physic. Lolx... Recall to the day , I was so down after the exam n i told my classmate tat It so hard , I think I cnt pass it! B she told me tat so easy, she cn answer the question. I feel glad to her. But when the paper on my hand, I saw the marks.. 44... wow! It so nice for me! I din tt n I cn pass it! Lolx!!! It so excited for me! N my vlassmate is just got 2o marks... how sad! Nvm , she stil gt her way to suceed. Ok. Hmm.. I visited Utar today , Thr was a nice view n I like tat very much . My sis was registed for the new intake student thr. She will stidy thr for one year of the foundation , den forward to the financial or accounting. I stil thinking. STPM or A level. Anyway .. I'm trying hard to get my 8A+ ~ Lolx.. feeling like not blogging... boring Wednesday, March 24, 2010 | 8:10 AM | 0 comments
Happy birthday to my dearest! ^Ansen Lee ^ ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() I had no much of photo with him , just the wedcam with him tat nite! I knew my Ji mui for fews years. He beside by me to past my up n down . I wanna say a lot of thanks for him ! I glad to have a fren like him... clam n cool ! n Lastly..I like the photo which u wear spec! Itis cool!! Wish I said... Happy birthday & I love you ! incident of lost
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Yesterday , When I walked out with Honey after the skul off. She was surprised n shocked at the same time , bcz she found her motor was lost! I was like " Lame joke" .. N added .."go die" to her. But, her expression told me tat, the stuff nt being easy like I think . She went check around for her motor, N I was tot sumbody is tricking around. But, after I putted my bag in to the car n told my mom ,Honey lost her motor. My mom decided fetch her home .Afterward , I accompanied Honey to the office to make a report.Miss Cheah Helped us a lot. I saw the anxious of Ping having, I saw her eye was turns red when she was calling her parent. The subdued silence of us was exploding slowly. Then, my mom sent us to police station to made report. Yup, Just, I'm the 1st time to go to police station. I felt so excited to get thr . But Ping was quite down. After we made report on the 2nd police station, we went the 1st police station for met the inspector of duty police, A pretty m straight policewomen, she asked Honey a lot of question (according to the usual process), after tat , we sat on the sofa tat provided, n sang song tat... "Baby are u down down down down down "..wow! N fuck the theif! fOOling around the police station. Seem she quite put down the fact she lost her motor, or mayb she just tough in front of me. Anyway , I stand bside by her whenever She nid help. This is wat we call... Best ever fren! rite! We went the venue of incident, tat is our skul , for taking photo with police. The 1st time I sat in the poilice car, n found tat,,(police doesnt belt also ... hahaha) so ..Let's us free for belt! Yea.. no saman for no belt! Yea! Later, POLICE FETCH US bek to my hone n my mom sent honey to her house. I just worried about tat, Cn Honey stand of those full day din eat anything ? ... Bt, she cn b tough ! Juz like her look , strong. I heard Kar chuan was lost his phun too..Hey , bkful larh ~man ... I hope my fren can be more bkful to prevent more the jenayah Happen! Let the robber or thief arrest by police n put them in jail ! Tat is my feeling of 1st day facing lost motor. 1st time ..1st experience... excited! for him
Monday, March 22, 2010 | 9:01 AM | 0 comments
I knew he doesnt read my blog although I saw he on9 everyday in fb .I dun noe wat I sad for. I just dun wan to point out the weakness of our relationship, But, Whenever the feeling of sadness appears on my mind, It is killing me with cruelness, I hope he cn text me . I hop he cnby my side. But totally negativity ! I keep telling myself, Tat the way of my new bf with new way to couple. but, doesn't it all I wan? I dunnoe.... Mayb, my blog doesnt means anything for him. But, I knew my followers appreciate it. Nvm ... smile .. ZHI YING , is this wat u wan ? Have u think clearly ? idk .... 爱情。。还真叫人辛苦
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1.以前在人群中。。。我走得很快。。。因为我对这个人生不抱着期待。。。直到遇见了您。。。为了您放慢了脚步。。。开始学会期待。。。因为您令我觉得这世上会有人与我相爱。 。。最后却只能看着您的背影。。。与其他人相爱。。。剩下无奈。。。和我自己。。。独 一无二的悲哀。。。叫我看开。。。 2.天下的所谓的爱上不爱自己的人。。。像小说一样。。。都有着一样的结局。。。只是剧本 里的主角角色不一样罢了。。。 3.最爱的距离。。。不是靠在最近。。。而是各处一方。。。彼此还能互相感应。。。 4.有时候。。。放手是对她最好的祝福。。。 5.好想哭。。。不管脸上戴给人看的面具显示得多么灿烂。。。结果里还是阻止不了心里所流 的泪水。。。要到什么时候。。。才会眼干泪尽。。。令我的心淡下来呢。。。 6. 我有一颗心。。。叫死心;您也有一颗心。。。叫开心;可我不让您看见我的死心。。。是 因为我不想让您的开心为我而变成伤心。。。所以我在你面前。。。总是封闭内心。。。 7.亲人节的礼物永远都不会完美。。。它完美。。。是因为您把它握在手里。。。 8.爱您的礼物不是99朵玫瑰 ; 而是送一朵您喜欢的花。。。然后默念99遍 ‘‘我爱您’’ 9.送给您鲜花,因为我喜欢您; 送给您巧克力,因为想满足您; 送给您锁匙圈,因为要想念您。。。每一天 10.一辈子的遗憾就是:出世时,你和我不在同样的婴儿房; 童年时,我和你不在一样的育儿园; 求学时,你和我不在同样的班级; 工作时,我和你不在同样的职位; 结婚时,你和我不在同样的教堂。。。最后死了。。。我们也不在同样的灵堂。。。 11. 最远的距离就是离您背面几步的距离。。。流着泪看着您和其他人相爱。。。而您不懂 12. 没有您。。。我的生命也可以发光发热。。。只是没有您在身边。。。不够完美。。。 13. 和你在一起。。。我笑。。。因为你; 和你分开了。。。我哭。。。因为你; 和不爱的人在一起。。。我哭笑不得。。。因为你。。。 14. 萝卜先生爱慕着活泼可爱的兔子姐姐。。。但注定被她啃咬伤害 ; 萝卜先生不懂。。。一直爱着他呵护着他的。。。其实是大地小姐。。。 15.爱您,就要让您像只自由的小鸟,不用笼子困住您,让您自由,当您想走,我不会勉强您留 下,只希望当您在空中飞翔。。。偶尔想起这里有个随时接纳您、保护您、等待您的我 16.我站在豪雨中,向您微笑、祝福,任由雨水将我淹埋,为的,只是不想让您看见。。。我豪 雨般的眼泪 17.一只小小的蚂蚁被踩死也会很痛 , 更何况是我的心。。。 18.世上最惨忍的拒绝不是“对不起”......而是“好朋友”...... 19.因为对你过分的关怀...让上帝赐予了我翅膀...无可奈何...我只好在天上守护你 ... 20.陪你走过天涯海角...一起拥有的记忆,心情...是我们在一起的见证... 21. 受了伤的你我不想打扰...只希望梦中有你...真实中能和你再度相遇... 22. 你的失落就像病菌...看见你伤心...它感染了我...所以...一起承担...然 后痊愈吧吧... 23.努力的为你改变自己...一点一点的...因为不想失去你... 24. 感觉现在最幸福的事..就是对你的爱...一天一天的...一点一点的...越来越深 ... 25. 我的手用力一抓...抓个空...但残留在手里的香味依在...我知道...我已经接 近您了...我也决定...我不再轻易放弃了... | 8:55 AM | 0 comments
poem 美丽的蓝蝴蝶谷 晨风吹起无尽的思念 深情的蓝色精灵 轻声细语不悔的痴慕 永恒不是幸福童话 爱海不是美丽传说 若有你的回忆相伴 山风诉说我的无悔: "又岂在朝朝幕幕" 原来我爱你 Today
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I went lkunch with family this afternoon in Dai shu kio , Love the sha gok with laksa very much ! Later we went to BP medical centre for my daddy's check up. The report doesnt very nice ... But, I ;m nt wish to say this now... T.T Ok, I spent 5 or 6 hours for my nap time. Owh ~ After I pick up my skul bag , I found my MT reference book , It was just slpping oeacuful in my drower! Damn ! I tot it was lost it ! The most funny stuff today is , when I received my chinese paper , I saw my marks.. The first sentence tat i shouted is .." wat the fuck !" My fren tot i was fialure, but,, I pass it .. N get it 50++ ... wow! I pass my chinese paper! Unbelieveable! Hm... suddenly feel so sad to my di .. yao hui... Gambateh ..di !! I'm alw at ur side! ok ? I'm doesnt as well as last time. Mayb the time being beside him was so lovely~n sweet, but, when the loneliness attach my life especially at nite , I just can't stand of it! Haiz.... Y my love alw contain tiredness n sadness... Y I cnt ... watever .... Happy Birthday to you
Sunday, March 21, 2010 | 6:46 AM | 0 comments
![]() Happy birthday to Louis Kong Wish u all the best ... Dear ... I'm here sry to u ... Last nite, U text me n ask me y I dun accompany u to past ur bday . I think u must happy with ur frens now, rite ? sry to tat ..... n.......n I gotta broke up with u . bcz.. Thr gt sum reason to do tat.. hope u understanding tat... I'm sry from my deepest heart Wyenz Au
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I received wyenz's text in the evening. It was the shocking msg ! I had chatted with him . N discussing about the cooking. Lolx.. he quite well in cooking.. wow! it is cool !Soon, I'm in cc now. I read his blog just now , n it piss me off somehow . ,所以我惟有讨厌自己,将可以说是把自己封印~虽然我不会得到快乐,但同时我也不会得到难过.. copyied from wyenz blog I think he got a misguide which I have no idea whr he taking from !? Doesnt a teens live with those stupid idea is so so ridiculous ? How come a person can live with no feeling ? I'm fucking unagreed to those stupid idea . wat a poor boy!? I admit tat, after a person gt hurt is nid to protect n overcoming the hard rock with his own way . but, should's Mr Au do cruel as u ? Being a teens should'nt crazy with ur gang , when outside was raining, all of u ran out n tear ur clots , shout louder n laugh louder togather ? Should'nt u din bek home the whole nite just for hang out with ur gang n loider in barroom , cc or mamak ? should'nt u bring ur gf go to have a movie n let ur fren tease u with those "shit words" ? It should be all wat teens nid! We nid happy when we enjoying! We nid angry when we pissed off ! We nid crying when we upset! We must throw out wat the stressful in the time tat we crazy with fren ! U told me u get hurt once in love. Y dun just open ur heart n accept the new one. Let the another one to see ur hurt, ur wound, ur injured! Let she be ur doctor n cure it. N the wound will the pretty memrize of urs. ! The world has a lot of plyer, but stil have the rest one. Dun give up n keep trying hard to find ur best matcher! ur shy to girl. But , u cn lern how to live with girl. showing ur gud with them. behaving like a gentleman , Tat's all should be to learn. Like a new born baby , they learn to crawl , stand, walking, n finally walking. The process is cant skip ! N all of us pass this hard process isn't it ? We can run now ! When we stil a baby , we crying for the failure, but stand up with the courage ! Y we will as brave as this ! That is wat human being's talent! we keep fail n until one day we got the victory ! Just keep in touch with all girl . Brave a bit, stride ur leg , u wil noe tat, u have walk long path n u r nearly the success soon . Rmb, I'm ur fren .. n alw at urside... this is wat I promised to those my fren . Mcd
Saturday, March 20, 2010 | 5:48 AM | 0 comments
I had been abandone my bloggie long time. So I am here apologyto my followers . I'm sorry peeps!I'm quite fine here n going to low my weight. Yea... Since I get fat, was managing to lower my weight bt i was damn lazy to do exercise ! Lolx... NW, i HAVE MY spirit to do anything tat I wan! I gt sumone support till the end. Lolx.. I had my dinner with family on Fri in Pizza hut! wow! I love Pizza Alot !!! We chilled thr , n I think the most noisy is out frm us ! Lolx... I din bek last nite, I had spent my whole nite with him n MCD . I'm loving it! Lolx... chat with him in thr... N din gt a rest . Lolx..Tat sumone ! I wanna tel u here ! I love u fucking tat much ! n I would Low my weight for u ! I will take u go MGS to meet my fren n Told them louder . "HE IS MY BF!!!!!" I love u more than any my ex ! I cnt live without ur support nur comfort! SO ... WOULD U LIKE TO TELL ME , HOW MUCH U LOVE ME !!!!? Lil Baby ... zhi Ying love ... Lil. Baby ..XXXXXXX Tuesday, March 16, 2010 | 12:00 PM | 0 comments
just a massage, u let me happy like hell... only you,tears wow!
Sunday, March 14, 2010 | 8:57 AM | 0 comments
I was addicited to cc nowadays! Lolx... MAYB THR quite "mixed" thr , Bt I prefer stay in those silence n quiet place. I like the last seat n the num usually is 23 or 24... Yea.... Drinks with my honey ... Lolx..sure gt a lot fun just now, bt today we went cc bcz too lame!!! We have no more topic ! Lolx...... The next stuff tat I wanna inform is .... I wil b go barroom on next fri ! Wow~ with kc n his fren ! nice nice nice!!!!! I LOVE MY BLOGGIE SO MUCH Ken
Saturday, March 13, 2010 | 4:18 AM | 0 comments
Ken, a super duper commom name. I met another ken today who I like admire n crazy for him b4,. Lolx.. try dun missunderstood.. 'Before' ... wat a match ken with "ken" Lolx... ok.. trun to the point, Ken bullied e alw n he never feel bore to it! HE MAKE ME CRY TODAY! and, he stil ask me dun b too sad for tat! wat the.... Anyway, I met him too.... bt ..sigh ...I just hope I cn express my feeling through my bloggie, unfortuannally, my keyboard was out of function bt anyway ...I'm in cc now.. SPM
Thursday, March 11, 2010 | 12:02 AM | 0 comments
CHONGJIJING ! CONGRATEZFORTAKINGURBESTRESULT! my Pc broke
Wednesday, March 10, 2010 | 11:40 PM | 0 comments
Argh~ Wat a hectic day I past in these two days! So, I was a lot of words nid to throw out through my bloggie! BLOGGGIE I miss u muchie!!!! hmm.. Let's I report my life 1st ... Ok.. I'm cc RIGHT now ! with my sis who just get her Spm result . After I asked her counter start the com for me, I get to my place tat I'm sitting now. Bt, I dunnoe how to open the CPU ... I dun noe wat I press ...I think..tat is the monitor buttoon, bt anyway ! I asked help frm the nice guy who sitting beside me plying the stupid fucking idoitic DOTA!!!! hmm.... I had been discover sumthing fun in skul, I found sumoe who cheat in skul. wow! wat a interseting! bt. I'm going to tell teacher abt it bcz I hate tat guy fucking tat much! who is him ? Let's call him cheap guy. nt..bastard... nt ..jerk.. nt..I think fuker is the most rude word to decribe him.. bcz he is really stingy n sumtime even more than a girl! Bt, anyway..I'm nt going to make the report to teacher .... bcz.. we stil have fun time when we in form 4.. for the considering.. I wont do tat... generous yarh ??? sure I am..thx thx... (phew*) hmm.. tmr will going gathering with Honey ! They went our today ! II stil have my physic exam yet! so..Better I stay in home tonite... n Ken.. thx for showing the understanding.. for..comfort me almost everynite.. thx for ur song a lot.... so... hmm....Lolx... The last task wil be text in tmr! Zhi Ying! Try ur best to achieve the best try ! yea.... Stressful killing me
Tuesday, March 9, 2010 | 7:55 AM | 0 comments
It is mudeer, tat let me cant breath at fews mins. I keep struggling ! N escaping frm all of this. Bt, I just hv myself to face, To fight , to overcome! Even My dearest was hurting me now, I cnt concentrate my exam, I guess.. I dun wan to think so much , bt it is just cnt stopping to do tat. It is killing me seriusly! I cnt even help myself to survive! Feeling like die... Frustrated
Monday, March 8, 2010 | 11:26 PM | 0 comments
I were very depressed today. I have no any mood to complete my exam. I so down today and I wish I can get over this sooner. I sat down n discussed with Honey today. I told them , He got to kou lui alw in fb, N the most bad is, I catched tat ! I'm very dissapoint to him , I knew sumday was end point for us , Bcz I planned I wil leave him . I can't stand of this! I wil break down~! I wil crazy !!! When I were doing my English paper , I lied down n wipe off my tears at interval. My brain keep flowing on those scene tat the c-box.. Omg.. finally I keep nite-mare yesterday. I knew it is nt working as it hurt me a lot. I cant concentrate my exam very well. the 1st time , I keep crying on my MM paper. I have not time to finish tat, I tried my best to finished it bt I cnt.. I failure to control my emotions. I'm nt wish to talk about my mm paper anymore. I squat on the heel beside the road when I were waiting him to fetch. Suddenly, Tears weeps down seriusly n I cnt even control my wail frm sounding out. After few mins, he came , I passed my bag to him n say nothing. Watever he asked me I just keep in calm. Bcz I affraid , once I broken my calm , I wil cry louder..... Finally, I cry on his back n told him tat I cnt do my exam very well.. Consequently, He did told me tat, It is nothing for it.. He comfort him with his best. After I cried, I feel much more comfrotable. Idk Y I bcum so weak suddenly, Mayb I cnt overcome the disaster tat came once with couple I stil have my MT n Sj exam tmr, Bt, I'm totally din study Sj! Idk how I exam my paper tmr. Anyhow, I won't care anything , Let them delay to after exam. I wont care how he kou lui ? Watever ... I wil live better n better Anger
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Shall I express my anger using the foul language ?I'm trying to calm down but I found tat I cnt . Ok... Be lady.. I told myself a lot of times.. Hold on!!! Y I instead of angry bt nt crying ? Wat's wrong with me? I became matual or ??Lolx! Wow!! Hey .. I really putted down dy !!! I even smile now! Lolx... Tat's show I dun love dy .. wAT LARH ... Hey .... Seriusly! Try u all dun tease me with the Pokai ! Fuck ! Shit! Ok... calm down ... I think I nid to slp now . I hate him ! Exam
Sunday, March 7, 2010 | 7:38 AM | 0 comments
Few more hours later, I will be in skul for my exam. I'm ready to get my pyjamas n done my revision . But, I just gave myself a reason to sit in front of my pc. He called me today , 3 calls around 6-7pm. I treated him so cold! I act like it really nt myself. I nt purpose to do that but I did it.It is approaching to 12, I'm waiting his msg , I'm waiting his call .It is stil left 15 mins to 12 ! I knew it is fool even nuts! Bt, I alw be to this. I had planned I wil slp at 10, Bt, I affraid tat he cnt contact me after I slpt.I knew he is getting his troubles now , I wish I cn stand beside him n help him through his troubles was gone. bt , I have no more effort to do tat. I keep praying or mayb, he wil call me , in the next minutes. or text me , ask me to wake him up tmr. Bt I noe It is just a dream . I knew , his sweet words keept for tat girls. I wonder wat he doing rite now ? slpping or at outside ? or, he on his msn n sms with others girl. All of this was foggy , I'm tired with the game. It is make ppl exhausted n stressful. Oh god! I so suffer! I t doesnt turns gud after he called me . Idk wat he told me bt I just keep crying . My heart is empty , n it like sumone crush my heart seriusly. If tat just ur reason, den I cn tel u , I so so so hurt when I heard those stupid thing.I wish I cn cry out louder now! I'm tired............. I'm tired........ Revision
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I went Zhan Yao 's place for revision today. I din fall aslp last nite bcz I miss sumone so much. N I had my blogging last nite. Ping fetch me around 1.30. n after I had my bath , I just went out with him n straight went to Zhan Yao's place. I took sum books , hey guy! we went thr is for revision ! nt for ply , ok ? Uhmm.. I get thr about 2pm. N I was ask for a cup of water, bcz I was thristy like hell!! The big sun , hot wheater! wat the ... I teached them Chemistry, they r the most best student Tat I met b4 ! I nearly take parang n wanna kill them,just a graph , they nid 1/2 an hour to finish it, ok! it is ok! but , we have a lot of jokes thr . Lolx.. My gang's idioms. Like... 老师扫corner - had~~ 日日出街 - ng 闷geh merh !? (sum of them was secretly bcz they contain a lot of bad words.Lolx.. ) ![]() ![]() ![]() Happy n funny life is wellcoming me now. Letter "k"
Saturday, March 6, 2010 | 11:04 AM | 0 comments
The Letter K for my life was unimportant from now!I just hate the feeling for being self-loving!I wanna said sry to all of my fren !Ping.. the ever best fren of me..I have no dare to tell the truth!I had been lie to u .I still couple with him since he gt trouble.On others words, I never break up with himbt the way we act is just like broken up. Ping, I really get hurt seriusly now. I knew all of ur said, all of ur meaning. I chatted n discussed everything tat happened in my life. Even tough the you yu's prob , I wil tell all of those detail n ask advice frm u. But, you noe y the prob Y I had never tel u the truth of I couple with ken . Bcz I sked ur scolding. Did u ever realize, whenever u talk about ken , I wil find other to cover this. If I'm nt in the mood of talking Ken, I wound ever wanna think him ! I wan my happy life! U noe! Ken chau ! I had tired of waiting ur msg , just for tat "reach home , dar" ..wtf!!!! this is wat we called love!!!! Zhi Ying! When u going to wake up frm the lie? When u going to whack all of his cheat!!! Zhi Ying , how many times u nid to accpect the truth n hurt about he kou lui ? When U gonna said .." Ken chau , I'm nt love u anymore" , when u gonna tell queen .." tat fucker ken chau .. how bad is him..." talk all about his bad thing! when u gonna said to ping , "宾,我争气了!这次我真的争气了!” I'm so sad now... for the sake of decision. I trying to make myself tears down , bt , My tears nt falling down instead of my brain ask me to fuck off tat stupid guy with foul language!! But, I just noe after my msg had sent out, it doesnt gt any reply. The feeling doesnt nice huh ? I hope I cn leave the place as soon as possible to let my mind more clearly. I dun wan b so fool like wat they said about me!? I knew it! I knew they keep laughing n whispered tat I'm sohai ! Loving a shit n let them shit used n plying! rite? I knew it!! I knew all of them r ur all sentences!!!! Ping.. I do really hope I cn chat with u.. bt, it has no courage to talk about him in front of u. I have no any mood of prepare exam ..u noe.. How sad! How dissapointed! How ... speechless...!? The feeling of loving a wrong person n hope he loving u bek , Just like the wrong flower sent to ur lover. It doesnt match n it should b seperate for the whole life! Mr.K , can I just leave u ! Wat I sacrified b4 n it just turns up ur one.. "我搞成这样,都是你害得” .. ok , fine!!!! I'm the wrong! I'm wrong since I accept u as my bf n I trust how much u love me! The wrong had did! The mistake cant change, n we just nid to do correction . Rite ? Den I just do tat! No more any true love for me!!! Zhi Ying! The last chance for urself. God.... I just dun wan b sad anymore.,.. When my prince wil come ? huh ? felling down n frustrated. No matter how I happy with my gang, once I get bek home. I text with kok wai, the feeling is different with him. A few msg with him cn let me happy like eatting sweet. But, the game of falling in hell n going to heaven is tired . N how sad if u r heared ur fren said... said...abt... how he ...betray u ... when ur tears dropping down,he doesnt feel anythign to it. He just..no time to care. y? Y we wil get the end so fastly!? I had tolorance so much thing! I accpeted everything now! but y !? U treat me so cruely !? I dun noe who else I cn depand on now. should I supposed to be alone forever ? should no one wil comfort me now? shouldn't it is unfair to me !? No one understand how much I love him !? n no one, cn understand the feeling I having now. I getting to give up myself , bcz it is too hurt. it is too hurt.. I hate this.. I dun wan to heard anything tat about him , cover other thing by listen wat u all told me about him. It is bcz , I just dun wan to hear the truth. I lie myself, he is just make fren .. make fren doesnt wrong!? rite? Bt, lastly, I heard the bad news.. I have totally broke down . Like now. It doesnt a make fren, zhiying! it is not! u noe!!!!! Get up frm now! u stil have chance. Crying is nt showing of lose. It is showing of the sadness express through ur tears. so , it is nt shame. Zhi Ying , wil change her num tmr. Zhi YING , DUN CRY Hang out
Friday, March 5, 2010 | 8:10 PM | 0 comments
I had hang out with my gang last nite at mamak again! I think we wil be go on this function every week,bt , it is damn nice like I though ! so .. Y not ? As usual, zhen yao fetch me , think we get ping's place around 10.I stayed in her house for helping her moral project ,n waiting her bath. :) Yet, I just keep complaining abt her colour pencil, Fable Castle . I like drawing , mayb design is more suitable to explain.I just draw fews words on the paper, n i STOPPED , went mamak with them. In the 2 hours b4 we went bek , thr just 3 person , after big chick came, our topic become more wisely n funny. I just love wat he told me ... “你们知不知 E largowen 的老婆很*烦?” BC said “对咯对咯!!!他教我英文!” I said “你们知不知道。。。不是。。那时候,我们班的就在想那个老师最烦!想来想去。。就是这条番薯。 跟着,我们就在想,么声音最黑人憎?” “ok~ " I said.. "class~" ping said.. "不是不是。。。是 had~ 你们自己想想啦。。每个老师说had~ 的声音。。真的很鬼死烦!”。 “又有一次,我就说为什么老师那么迟忠没有来?然后,坐我隔壁的豪就说,死左咯!刚刚给我推下楼,扫corner 位,跌死!哈哈哈 然后,有一个人就说。。那么他一定大喊 Hell~~~ ,这个时候,我就说。。不是。。不是。。他是大喊 Had~~~~~~" rofl~ I keep whack my leg, bcz it too funny! Had~ Hey , let try to ask ur teacher said "had~" with weird sound... Tat's really funny! Lolx.. Had~ Had~ a nice day Lol
Thursday, March 4, 2010 | 6:34 AM | 0 comments
I love my cloths a lot ! Nth happened today , just a occupied day! have a revision in skul , tt later n gonna home for the drama. Nice drama.. Hmm..straightly went for a ride, n meet sumone I wish not to b encounter. Pasar malam at nite n now.. blogging. Hmm..seem like my blog doesnt popular like last time. Long time din heard anyone talk abt my blog. omg~ I think i wil stop being blogggin' anyway.. I love my life now! relax n free!! Hmm.. Queen .. Watever ,.. I just wanna said.. "fuck u all the best!" u noe wat I talking about Fuck u all the best, queen Energetic Day
Wednesday, March 3, 2010 | 5:55 AM | 0 comments
I cnt figure out a title of this , nvm it's ok ..Just call it..energetic day .I think I'm so satisfy to my PJ period today , at least , it is stil a little like "PJ period" . I had chatted with qing , hui teng n etc . They were so nice n kind. n they too active . They let me found bek the feeling of young!! Ok , we have a boring warm up 1stly after tat we have a practise shot ball one by one . Hmm.. it is nice bcz I'm the 1st one who shot the ball n it is in! wow!! I like basketball very much!! After tat, I teached my team sum technique to shot the ball acuratery. Hmm.. I teach them , Hold the ball n near to their chest . den Point at the black line on the board , shot it with rite strength. Nice shot! 1ST time they arent in the ball, bt the 2nd . they done it completely! wow! how happy ! After tat , we have competition for the shot ball . Form5 VS form3 .. phew ** easy job larh .. I in one ball !! yea!! I contribualte 1 marks for our form! N the tragedy of today was we cnt have a true a real basketball match. I have been long time din ply basketball. Nvm ,I wil buy a basketball n ply with my frens . OMG~ Tat feeling is so gud ! Hmm.. I think I had been quit it for long time n My skill wasn't bad like I think. yea... (how comfidence) Lolx... Ok .. Miss sumone a lot..bt nt going to find him ..bcz I'm girl .. lolx The final lie
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As always, you look at the reddish dusk, do you remember the reddish sun on that day? rough wind opposing our cheeks, inthe early summer wind vanished. aa our lovely memories sway away with it. two of us can't dwell to how it was can you deceive me well? our love too true to be appear as lies. you tricked me completely with your lies, I hate lies, yet adore them bcz those were your lies. through the raining nights, your lies keep flahsing in myhead, as ever drop of rain strikes upon me. Piano melodies stopped suddenly in performance, if you chose to be that pianist, whythe melodies of ballad suddenly stopped ? what is left scatter in today is fear ,tiredness and sleepiness again. Behind a fake smile, I hide my sadness behind shadow I hide it flawlessly as you notice it, so I pretend everything it's alright. even though I hope to someday hold your hand again, not everything we wished for comes true Like awaiting miracle news on the dining table... Perhaps "the morning" we wish might not arise. our emotions and feelings clashed, promises ans vows shred into pieces; turned into roungh sand on the beach as embracing those broken memories, I surpass my emotion meeting you, as things are now, our love is becoming nothing more than a pain. rather clinging on to the prmises that we weren;t able to fulfil we waved and bid goodbye for the last time. saying see you again wth ta temperate smile but in reality we don't right? that final lie wasa warm n kind lie that I won't forget. |