♏.Prada

I am going to have my driving course tommorrow. I got to wake up at 6 am , and now are about to 2 am . Yup, I have 4 hours to sleep . LOLX.

I don't know . I miss him . :( It is going to 2011.Everything run fast , time doesnt wait anyone .Just like me, a girl who are already 17 worrying about her future. She was suddenly stop , and revert back at midnight.

Don't you think a girl who should be has her own life but she willing to wait his bf's call every night is too stupid and fool ? She though she can tell all of her lifes to her bf but she found dissapointed every times. And now, she gave up. She cried alone in front of pc and revert back all the moment .

Time is just reverted back to 2008 , we just fren that time. We hang out alw , likes , drinks , dinner, supper , go Pasar malam togahter. Even we are togather in school. But, we just good fren .

I remember I don't really love him when we coupled. Anyhow, he did hard to get my heart. Well, he did. He called me everynight , he walked behind me ,protecting me and be my side when I lonely. He didn't miss any moment to be with me . I LOVE HIM

But thing changed, he doesnt love me as he did. He treat me as a ... toy or something. I was too foolish to hope that maybe I can change him , to be the guy he did. I tried 1 and half year . The story abort and continue . We break up and get back . The rountine keep on going.

Meaningless.

And now, I realised that we can't back to origin . I love you , you dun love me. It is simple but cruel. The best solution is stop connection . Live out the life you wanna be. Put him down and go on ur bright future.

Bye bye . In the last few days of 2010 , I should do corrections in my life. I cant be a fool in my next year. Farewell .
Well , It is all about my future . I was about fews days ago chatted with my aunts and uncles. It was about late at night , as last time we gathered in the living room of my 2nd aunt's home . We were about to have a chat , just a family gathering.

They used to prepared wine, but I didn't touch it . I just sat aside ,playing the pc. When they started to have a attractive topic, I putted down my fb and sat togather . My uncle was talking about his out-station life . We were enjoyed, for sure.

Then, they began talking about me. Yup , they asked what is my future plan . When I told them I wanna be a PILOT. OK, they don't agree it and they made a lot of funny excuses . erhmm. They were about to strike my plan ? Or wat? I DON'T FUCK!

So, my uncle was stated that the condition of a pilot is can't have a sighh problem , like, short-sighteness problem . Oh god, I surfed wed , It doesn't a problem that a "couple pairs of eyes " participate. Spectacles is not the problem anymore. OKAY ? UNCLE!?

I protested, but they just pull down what I said. And the most fucking sentences is that " aiya..also wan " CO LI " one ." ... I was silent and watched drama . Please, if U don't even know what type of person I am , don't judge me before u knew truly who ZHI YING CHONG IS !

I confessed that I am lazy but I am clever furthermore intelligent! I don't reads books every seconds such as ur daughters. I be with my boyfriend every moment because I AM MUCH PRETTIER . I too busy for settle my personal stuff!

However, Ur opinion doesnt represent mine. ,me ... carry on my pilot dream. I don't even fuck ur opnion , thanks for your advice. (I don't think that is called "advices" , it is much more like mork.)







It is Wednesday , a chinese festival is paseed ? yea , it has been celebrated few hours ago , " TONG ZHI " was considered important to people ,a lot of you ate " thong yun" in home .

I made some , it tasted great! Put togather the sweet rice flour and water . Add your favour colour essence into it. Then round it a small sphere with ur hand. Afterthat, prepare the soup. Boil the water , put the pantan leaf and sugar into it. You can put garlic with them , but it is just a choice. Some old people doesn't like the garlic flavour , just like my grandmom. After the soup is prepared , put the TONG YUN into it , wait it float at the water surface, A tasteful tong yun can serve on table.

Some memory spring to my mind . I remember a night that my mom ,grandmom , my sis , and cousins were gathered at the round table, rounding the tong yun togather. My sis and I were naughty the time , We made out the tong yun a lot of shapes , weird shapes. Likes , aeroplane , cube , people .. I forgot some. But, we don't follow the rules always. :)

I have a happy time in this festival .

Happy Tong Zhi Festival ! I am thinking of my future all the time. If you are my friend, then you must be know that my ambition is to be a pilot . I like to flying on the sky like a eagle. May you laugh me , I found myself so high whenever I think I dress up the pilot uniform and the pilot cap on my head. The feeling is awesome!

Anyway, I know this job is high rate dangerous . I will be taking risk as I taking my responsibility to be a PILOT . Nevertheless , I am standing by to sacrify my life for my dream.

The pathway to be a pilot doesn't easy . Just ignore the risk. We talk about the begining. If you wanna be a pilot , the first thing is that you must very smart and even intelligent like a spy. Likewise , your conversation skill must be very well . Well , I think I can handle these by practising.

The second is the course. The fees is very expensive. It cost RM 300 thoudsand ++ , And you may not pass in the test. If you fail , you have to retake the course . Besides, the subjects studying is totally alien subject to me .I saw the catalog , I don't even know what I reading! hmm... the subjects is about 11 subjects.

The third is . the chances after u out from the college , where you will be work. SIA ? excuse me , SIA has very high intake qualify , If you are not a legand, then you can't work for SIA . Air Asia ? Well , I think I will not work for AA, bcz this airline is too cheap . I means, it is really cheap. So, I maybe work for MAS. I hope I can work for MAS in the future.

I am sooooo tired. Slp . bye I told myself on thrusday . Since he rejected to help me. I knew deeply wat person he was. Yup , I hate him just as someone who kill my dad. I AM SO HATE HIM!

I told him ... " How cruel you can be then I can be too, I even can do better than you."

I told him ... " I hate you ."

I told him .. " I wan you DIE! Badly !"

I told him ..." I wanna you to try the feeling of hopeless."

I told him .." I wanna you suffer than you die."

I told him ... " CHAU KAI LOON, If I dun zheng sei you , I dont call zy chong. !"

I told hm a lot .. Am I really hate him ? Omg ... I dun noe Y I cry just now ? Maybe I miss him again and I find excuses .. i JUST WAN MY THING BACK .

lolx. U r a stupid , zhi ying... If u really wan him to die , Why u feel sad now ? Why you miss him so much ?How many times u tell urself , he is a jerk. Dun ever touch with him. Y? I don't even expect this curse upon me before. But , facts are facts .

I have to start at yesterday . that's Thrusday , I was having my physic exam that day. But I found that I have no time to revision on the saturday night. I just rush that day! Anyway , Rush doesnt help us in anytime as doing anything .

I forgot to take my IC and Slip SPM to go to school . I realise it when I reached school and walking along the roadway to school. The first thing I thought was that , " Ask him to fetch me back immediately".

I ran to the place we usually gathered. I found him , sitting aside. I threw my bag away and ask him to fetch me back right the moment . The thing I never expect was happened .

" Fast."
"Go now arh?"
"iF NOT?"
"....."
"Fast larh!"
" What time now orh ?"
"hmm...40mins like tat."
"...."
"Fast larh ..."
" What time back orh ?"
" Fast one!... late oso nothing larh ... wont scold one."
"....."
"fast larh!"
" ...."
" Now go back , reach here wat time orh ?"

cheap guy , me :)
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I was piss off now , see, this is wat we call BOYFIREND! he is a jerk! Then I straight fuck him .
I ran away and ask my fren for borrowing me a motor. Finally , I found one . He is Ah lu. I never think while I having problem , he can help me without thinking anything.

I got his motor , And I ride back myself. I have no motor license. Try to think , how many people will lend you motor in case, you have no license. But, he did . And he did it without thinking a second. just pass me the key . and said. " OK."

I was so touch and appreciate . Until now, I felt sorry to him , because I have prejugde on him last time . Anyway , the people lend you his hand when U need help , that is the person who are really kind .

No doubt , I love him ! ....

For that sohai CHAU KAI LOON , I just have one to say "你某情 ， 我某义。”

I will let you know , how the feeling is mad and hurt. I was blind up my eyes . You played me for long, It is time to take revenge on you . You don't even make an apologize to me. OK , WELL! I will bring you to the jail . I promised. If I dun ruined your life , I dont call CHONG Zhi Ying!
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