♏.Prada

Today ,  I went for the first undang test for my whole life . I though It will only be the first and only one  time involved in this program but I just failed it . 


 I did checked again after I finished the questions . Sigh , it is just turned out to be something I predicted. I had counted those question I had not confirmed to correct , it was 10 . After I clicked the "ya" . Keputusan "gagal" 
I was  like , can I have a new try ? I dont believe I am failed ! I just cnt believed ! I am so down and surprise but after that I blamed myself overconfidence . 


 Why this thing will happened on me ? Where are my luck ? I think stuff changed after this year. Everything about me is bad . Luck gone ! I have to work harder ! 


 God , please help me to pass my test tmr ! Please . Omg 

I like to read old things . My old dairies , that's why I kept all my dairies in this blogpspot . No matter I am sad , Happy or Mad. I can easily knew by the times goes by . ..

I met Edward on the bus, he is now studying in ITP now. How lucky he is ! Well, just briefly chat and I got to go. I ran toward to omega, I was sweating and I am pretty sure my hairdo Was messy ! And then , when I asked the auntie where was the class, she told me “U got the wrong time , girl” . what the hell !? I was like going to cry soon. And after registered , I went out from the tuition center went to my favourite place to drinks. I knew I need a coke badly. I went MCD, for sure it is a part of my life.

Well, been sitting there , managing the tuition time table and finally, I found that , I should go home. Because I am so tired . No point to stay around there. And I finished up my coke and refilled it , went off to the bus stop just nearby. I waited around 10 mins , a bus passed by but it doesn’t stop down. It went off instead. I was like, “ Hey ! what the fuck !?” and then , I went up another bus , ok , the money collector just told me , “ we don’t go fair park nowhere hospital.” And I was shocked and don’t know how to react. “ You better down now since there are red light.” I went down and waited again. About 15 mins, another bus came again. This time , I can eventually back home. I took half an hour to back home. How tough !

What a joke to me !?

Another matter that I wanna mentioned is that, last night when I was in dong gu ting, My dear Ji mui just told me a fucking funny story that let me laughing the whole night.

Well, as we knew I went movie with him on fri and wait this guy to shop his custom , I saw his ex in jj when I just arrival in JJ. But then , he wasn’t there that time. She is much prettier now. Honestly. And then , she just texted my ji mui and said “congraz” LOLX ! she thought I am being with my ji mui. And we just treated it as a funny matter. Me and him, is mission impossible. Haha . I am actually, support them , but, guys are guys . I cant explain further anymore.

Ok, I explained to the girl that I can do nothing to his bf today. Honestly, I really don’t wanna get involved in anything. Especially love stuff. I feel my life now is better, I am apprehensive that someday I will meet him in somewhere else , But then still enjoy my riding bus life. It is really like a STUDENT . LOLX. I like my life although it is tired sometimes.

I am getting better and better, I wish to be better and better. Feeling better J

I will try my best to get my expected result ! hooray !!

I a just planning to bring together my notebook to MCD after I dismissed , because I have to update my status, yea, I felt lame sometimes . I think if the time fulfill with tuition will be better. I think that I am going to be lazy, Don’t know why . God!! Give strength to me ! Please .

Ok, I am just thinking all about him yesterday night, I knew shouldn’t be, but I just did it. Why !? I d on’t know , my heart felt anxious. Afraid to meet him again ? I think so , I even afraid when I walking back from school some more I have to tuition far away. I hope god doesn’t treat me so bad ! Please don’t let me meet him in such situation.

Today , they were teasing me in the class. For the obesity of an essay question. I knew I am fat ok , I am trying to low my weight and I wont just eat after I am in ss. Haiz.. I want to keep fit !! Keep it on as the annual party is going to happen. Grin. Feel lonely and boring. I hope time can pass faster. Hope everything in my life will not be that bad .

11th of September ,

A week passed , I didn’t complete my routine everyday .Since last week , I found myself so lazy and I felt tired in the afternoon , I just slept this afternoon and now I am so smart , can’t even have feel to sleep . I think I have to study later , chasing the syllabus. Yea !

About my school things , I felt prefect is really a hard job as the senior starting to bully us , Juniors. I don’t like this of feeling, even though they are senior they shouldn’t do this to us, stupid dumb indian women , Fuck off from this work . damn you !

My music is going to organize a Barbeque , woohoo ! It’s sounds nice even we hear about it. Yea, maybe we will organize in DR park or ken’s house , anyway , it is as nice as we heard. I am in charge of everything because I had this type of experiences before. Laugh J

I want to be more slimmer. I am 60 KG now, I have to be 55 before next month 11^th , because I have to attend many occasion , somehow like prefect’s dinner night which is the most important and former occasion . I had a planning to wear Sari , but, I just afraid I can not get a nice one. Or stick with my old plans ? My boy’s looks former suit ? I don’t know, But, If I wear sari , there will be a surprise for everyone, including my friends and family . If I wear boy’s suit , I will only be in fashion. Which one is better ? And how about next year ? I think this year I pick sari , next year I will take boy’s suit. Cosplay a Guy ! Pretty guy ! Lolx.

I found my interesting topic in physics , it is very attracting me , the static is a fun topic , I like to solve question like that, forces. Grin. Seem my life doesn’t so busy I have to work hard on textbook . ok !!!

Today , Puan Low asked me to go in front for public speaking. My speaking is sucks ! totally bad! I knew I don’t have a good talking but I just don’t know why , I cant even make a proper sentence. My English is getting worse , I have to work hard ! watch more and read more . I entertained my classmates today , The guy sitting beside me usually doesn’t have much expression laughed today. I glad to see that even though they make fun on me. As long as everyone happy, then I happy .

I am going to hunt for a school bag , I meant A really nice school bag, I think mixture grey and pink is nice. Or a Adidas branded is not bad too . Many choices, but it have to depend on the prices too , tomorrow I am going to Shopping complex to find my new tuition school bag , Once I found, I sure be very happy !

Actually, life is like a mountain , sometimes, it goes high and sometimes it goes deep . No matter how is it , we face it as usual . Because everything will disappear as the time goes by. I am still me, the little fool funny girl who is temper sometimes and crazy at the most. I have no restriction now , I like to play around and talk nonsense , at the same time , studying is also her favourite activities. So , don’t waste time on doing nonsense stuff . Try harder !

I felt my dad something wrong , I don’t know what their situation there . I hope everything will be ok . Ok , I have to continue my chemistry subject tonight. I think tonight I sleep late but it is ok because , I just want to study hard ! I wanna be the first place in school!!

19th of september ,

The incident happened today is that , my classmate suddenly wanna sent me home after I had a long meeting in school . I rejected it because I shy. Shy ? Yea, maybe . Just like me , I don’t like to depend on others . I don’t mind to help others but I afraid others to help me because I afraid will get involved in gossip later .

I went yong yee’s house yesterday to bake apple pie , turns out bad . Maybe , I just rush to buy things and prepared things.I don’t like the taste anyhow. Later her boyfriend came to fetch her and just came inside to sit to wait us finished. They were so sweet , holding hands and playing with each others . I found myself inside suddenly and dropped in thought out of a sudden.

I used to do that right ? 9 months before , I still considered as sweet moment with someone else but now , I am single . Totally single ! Honesty , I don’t really like to be single , sometimes somehow feel lonely . I thought before to find a boyfriend , But I want those same type like him , why ? No others reason , because I don’t like boy so good. A bad guy suit me . Lol . Crazy me . but then ,after I consider a lot of things, I just don’t want to get in any relationship . Afraid of it.

Argument , crying over the nights , This kind of craps things I don’t wanna to pass it anymore ! Boring and horror! So , I take the simple way , be playful ^^

I am going to attend the dinner night , I think to wear baju kurung as I never been wear before in my life . Hopes it will be nice ~ ZhiYing Chong, You are the best !

Ending

给一个不应该爱上的人：
 Hey peeps ! hi, how my readers have been ? Hope everyone in well ,Well , I am gonna tell you what I did today ! I encounter a lot , think a lot , talk a lot and DID A LOT . lol.


 Well , I wok up7am and tidy up myself. Lol. Then , mom fetch me to Hui's house . On the way to MM tuition ,    I silenced because been thinking what Jc told me about that stuff . Felling into a deep thought. ... in down mood actually . 


 After I reached first , I borrow the homework they had been discussed in passed to weeks because I absent for two weeks , see, naughty me! Then , as normal , the class go on , I have loads of homework have to completes ! LOL . Then I went Parade , for having my hairdo by my kei ma , but , she wasn't there , so , I just have to go another time . I loitered around parade and bought somethings .


 Sis had a emergence call to me, We were planned to watch movie at 3 but, she just changed the time to 5.45 pm , she asked me to buy another one more ticket for her fren. So, I quit parade, took bus to jusco . Terrible , traffic jam in town , I spent about 2 hours to reach Jusco . After I reached school , straight away I went to cinema to buy ticket . After that, I went to watch my idol , lau gai fei , he is so handsome ! whoo ! 


 They were having some games with girls , stars with normal people. He is really hamsum ! I have a crush on him . Then , I went to shop around the jusco  . Every where of jusco ,I have been walk through . After that, Boon yong was there. We went to buy Jacket  , then , went to cinema . On the way , I was wanted to take balloon , but this fellow sooo mature . I think he think that , in my age shouldnt be playing balloon this kind of toy anymore . But, I am childish wat ~ 


 We watch Johnny English Return ! damn nice, This is the best comedy I watched in this year ! Better than nasi lemak . Mr Bean use his brain to tell us , comedy is like this, not just critisizing malaysia goverment   . And, Mr bean is much more classic than Nasi lemak . Mr Bean is big product ! But then , I felt like wasted my money to watch Nasi Lemak .I shouldnt be watch Nasi lemak yesterday ! Wasting of money . craps. 
Johnny English , best humor egent ever ! ROFL .


 I Laughed like a mad in cinema ! Claps hand somemore ! really nice! I miss the moment sitting inside cinema and watching this movie with fun mood ! So funny ! Just rush to cinema and have a watch on it . Don't ever think about nasi lemak anymore, Johnny is better than tat  thousand times . LOLX

 AFTER THAT , I went to buy some foods ... Then ... Back home with enjoy mood 


 A really enjoyable day with sis and jimui. LOL. meet frens in jj and parade. They dun even recognize me!! wat !? wahaha , am I being too much different frm last time !? Lol

 2008 ,  I miss the appointment to join the reunion dinner with my family , Stay in home playing friendster instead. that time , friendster is the popular . lol. THAT'S WHY . After that , bf accompany me to pass through the mooncake festival by phone .


 20009 , form 4 , I got nothing to do . At the right time , that sor lou pass by my house and he said he would like to make a stop . So , I just take some tables and moon cake , tea . We enjoy the moon light and chit chatting until midnight . This is the most happiest moon cake festival I pass in my life ! Very warm , very enjoy .


 2010 form 5 . This year , that sor lou took me to moon light party of his fren's house . Well, I just dont know anyone of them in the house (well , boys I knew larh ) I just sat aside him , watching him gambling . accompany him gambling until 3 .. something happened then . but not relate to him . well , My real prince dream comes true at that year ! Happy ? yeah , if my life was get rid out of that guy at the time .


 011 form 6 . Doesnt loitering to anyway .. playing wit sisters this year . damn nice with neighbour . and then , as usual , riding motor , da long with sis . LOL. normal moon cake festical activities . 


 Photos will be upload soon . LOL  Sigh , last night , it was running well actually . Suddenly , I felt coldness flash to my whole body , and stomach ache like hell . I went to  bath then , hope it will be allright after that. Worst . My body started to hot and fell very cold.  I remember wrote about " school reopen" this tittle a lot of times. I used to write this tittle with news photos . But , I just can't upload photos right now . SIGH . I am so mad yet angry about stupid kampung people talk about me. You know why , because they doesnt have anything to do , what they can do is just " talking and eating" , tat's y kampung standard is totally different from Ipoh standard.

Story began like this : I was playing my PC so enjoyable , and suddenly I received an phone call . Some stupid called and talked a lot of nonsense . At the begining , I was silence and listened , but , he just talking a lot of rubbish that let me can't even tolerate. OMG!

Please, Look at yourself before you judge me! Me! Zhi Ying Chong, I can play I can naughty I can do anything ! Because my mom not gonna kill me no matter what I did ! Who are you to tell !? You are just a dust .. No even important. And god, you let me talked foul-language today . Sorry that ! I used to be mad when I am angry .

So , Everything get back to normal ! Me and that guy ? Impossible larh .. YOR! I bored to explain anything anymore. He don't even deserve to be with me . what he can get is just some... yea.. I shouldn't be insulting anyone. Yea, HE GOT A NICE GF! So , everyone will happy . You happy I happy. LOLx

最开始谈恋爱的时候，妳不会有这个问题..
妳以为只要对方说喜欢妳，妳也喜欢他，就代表妳们在一起。
妳们每天要见面，就像口渴要喝水。
妳像没有腿的人，到哪 裡都要他接送。
他错过了妳的电话、他週末要和朋友们打球、他忘记了妳们的纪念日，妳会哭、会闹、会生气，不会想他会离开你..

然后有一天，有一个这样的人，他让妳知道，不爱一个人就像意外一样，不知道什麼时候会发生。他不要妳了..

时间没有任意门，妳没有一夜长大。妳花了很久的时间復原，想知道自己到底哪裡不好，哪一个场景出了问题。妳在奇怪的时间醒来，在不同的场合掉泪。没有人知道什麼时候原来的妳会回来。妳像是从战争归来，总是做恶梦，夜半尖叫著哭醒，没有人可以抱好一直发抖的妳。

所幸，就像树被叶子留下过冬，隔年还是扶疏茂密一样。妳还是好了起来。又开始笑到直不起腰，又会不小心得意忘形。一喝醉就对朋友撒娇，问为什麼没有人要妳。在婚礼上看到新娘和父母相拥而泣，想到妳的母亲一直在等妳带另外一个人回家，妳的鼻子酸了起来，眼睛有好多水气。

不是没有人喜欢妳，妳不是没有动过心，有时候甚至会带著对方参加朋友聚会。可是妳不会带他去婚礼、安排三个月以后的旅行、一起养一隻小狗。这些都有 承诺意 味的事情，妳都不会做。不是因为妳不肯付出。妳给的起，妳是放不下。或者，妳不知道要怎麼给，才不会成为对方的困扰。妳太怕自己是个麻烦，妳的爱太重，不 是每个人都能接好。

妳苦笑了起来。因为，妳就像是被放生野外的人，好不容易学会了怎麼自己取暖之后，已然不知道要怎麼重回都市，那个妳已经跟不上速度的先进文明。

妳不知道要 约会多久才算在一起，要多久约会一次..
做完爱的隔天该不该打电话，是不是只要妳想他就可以打电话给他..
妳不是外表看起来那麼完好，妳找不到他会担心..
他说要慢慢来的时候，妳会沮丧..
妳加班到很晚，一个人走出公司，寂寞到像整个星球只剩下妳一样..
没有人嘘寒问暖..

可是妳不会让他知道这些负面情绪。不会让他发现妳不过是外表坚硬，一折就断。因为，妳习惯了指望自己，妳没办法信任除了妳以外的人。相信真的有人会 喜欢一 点也不精明的自己。爱情变得有好多招式，要预习好多比划。妳不知道是在用心谈恋爱，还是在用脑。妳不过是想要对一个人好，不过是想要有人一起变老..

数学不好的妳一直想，为什麼妳会一直得到，
一个人加上一个人，最后还是只有一个人的公式。

证明题还没出现，证明妳算错的人还没有出现。
妳告诉自己要有耐心，就像等水滚一样，差一度就是不行。
妳愿意等，他会值得等，因为妳是很好的女人，他跟妳一样在找，一起相依为命的人..

As usual I play basketball in the court today .Well , I went there quite late , Some brunch of kids really naughty and this is what we called " Kamping Boy." Anyway , I still playing with them . Lolx.

A little boy who is the another team , he just piss me off. He bullied my little sister by knock my sister's chin and he still bullshiting a lot there. I am quite and silence , I asked them not to fight . They were quarreling there, the boy who is just srandard 5 throwing a lof of foul language .

Me, playing basketball and after that I just sit down and went off . I don't even fuck the off neither beat him . For last time , he was already beaten by me or my friends . I can make sure, he must be crying to go HOME. Lol. But I am form 6 now.. I knew that, I shouldn't be like that . And, I had doenst contacting with those gangster .? Am I? I threw all my bad temper and goes with tolence one . This is the way I grew .

Zhi Ying Chong , tomorrow you are going attend a important event , as you know, you may get to meet his relative there because his relative is having a big show. Yea, I go with another guy and tell his stupid relative that " I GOT NEW BOY, AGAIN !" sO what ? Pick your sexist dress , dress up yourself , go show off then ! Remember ,what they talk about you !

Tomorrow have to back ipoh already ~ Ipoh !! aIYA .. I have to tuition until 5 tommorrow! sienz .



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