♏.Prada

 My cousin married today . Yesterday , I went for his what single party . Some thing like that . Every couple will do that right. yea.

 I was suppose to attend the wedding dinner just now. Since, standard 6 , I won't go any wedding party because I think it was boring yet I dislike the feeling sharing a plate of food with others. Yea, Form 3 , my reason got changed. I have to keep fit. Yet the same reason going with me until now.  Though , it slight different right now. I don't attend any wedding party because I couldn't stand of people laughing and blessing the couple and I am alone right now! Kinda selfish ? I admit that. So what ?

 My birthday is coming . I wish it not to come . Because the amazing birthday won't happen It will not going to happen. And I don't know what wish should I wish. Hope I can find my best guy ? I can get my own result ? I can be rich ? I can be slim ? Or .. the wish I wish for every year since I engaged to some one , someone who passed my life and the shadow still existing ? Nonsense!

 I should let it go as I promised myself in the first day I crashed my heart because of the status. I compelled myself to trust ,  to believe  and not to face the real! The truth , something is definitely gone. I told myself , there might be a " ZY" private space in his heart, I believe something goes wrong with him and he has to do something just out of my prediction . Just a little heartbroken right now :) And I can absolutely proved I am wrong .  don't really the feeling right now . I want a cry .

 Zhi Ying , Just be go through the life as you passing now. Nothing is important as you always tell other. Everyone is just a passer by of your life , it depend how you treat him ? He is gone! He is dead dead gone! Story end! Dream broken! what you expect!? You are just ask it yourself!  Stop stalking his ! Stop everything you up to ! Just make it stp and start your new history pages .
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