Zhi
Ying
Chong
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Begin - End
I back to the place we started our 3and half years journey . Everything started at there , happening at there , processing at there too :) But it is not ended at there. I palyed basketball in the court , Looking around the palce we used to date. It is all the same, nothing change much. My mind is totally different , though . I used to wannna him accompany me every single moment. No matter where I went, He just stay with me . Am I being too sticky ? Yea, I affraid to lost him . That I used to .
Everything like a movie slides , performing in my brain .The moment , you hold my hand , and told me to give you an opportunity , The moment I cried over your shoulder , The moment I woke up 5 in the morning and prepared breakfast for you , The moment we shared our lil thing in the middle of night , the moment we sneak out and hang over the ipoh town. The moment we being in KL , shopping , playing and LOVING . I can't denied I miss that time . It is hard moment somehow it is sweet and happy.
I confused about myself, I don't know anything about myself. The life without you is sucks! I can't even eat ! I managed to transfer school .It is all so good about my new school . :) Everyone treat me so well in school . I felt so happy to stay in . I can't cry lately , I am just thinking , is it the quoter was over ? Am I crying too much for you!? I don't know. I need a big big cry !
I played basketball in the rain . It is fucking nice! Like I went back to standard six, I prefer live the more simple way . Happy and satisfication .. all the moment. What the hell of you to disturb my life for 3 years! U ruined everything out! You ruined it! You let me see so much thing which I dun wanna to see. Betraying , heartbrokening , trap, tircks , lies, cheat, used , so and so . I am the simple one. I just want my life happy and I cope with the thing I can cope with .
I screamed in the field then , I ran out the field . I scream "Let's everything end here . now!" I fell much more better . Like the burden really let gone. Smile :) I still me . For Chris , I miss him . I miss him so much . The one thing I ever regret is to let go him in my life. The one most regret thing Is to listen to you ! I shouldn't listen to you , I should go with him ! Ever! How come I just let go someone that so important to me. Even though I cried , I rag .. is it helping ? He is gone! Because of you!!!!! I just want him back ! But I knew he gone far.
End . Totally , I don't love you . Honestly, I think I had an crush on you , like what I treat my ex-bf . You are not the special one , Anymore. I don't hate you . I don't know why. I should hate
you , I think.
Just been drank with friend. It is doesnt like me at all .I suppose the one who make fun to the others. The 2 hours since 12am I sat there , drinking my beverage , talking so sad things until I cried . Because of something inside my mind dead ? Or I just acting right now? Or Ii just tired tonight ? I think I am just tired. jUST TIRED . Tommorrow I will reject all friend's date and be in home waiting to his call . I don't like to be a promisebreaker. He has been two weeeks doesn't call me , And I had a lot of things wanna threw to him . He and dear Bing , the most important person for me .
I affraid of friendship now. I don't know, I just seem have to build one thick wall inside my heart. I can't take it . The truth that came to me. I lost everything. I don't trust anything. Nothing will be important to me. I have to be strong. It is just doggy person , I don't have to mind about them and it is past. ng dui ng lei . as they teach me. :)
Zhi Ying Chong, you are came back . Like wat you told Bing just now,I wont in a relationship right now, even though ,I am just not that serious. because , the sacrifices is too big that I cant effort to take it. I start to be a playful one. Train myself as much as possible. And Zhi Ying Chong , Remember , what you have to do after one month. So, keep fit !
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About Me
✔Beauty is only skin deep, and the world is full of thin skinned people.
✔If you are not in fashion, you are nobody.
✔A girl should be glamour and fabulous .
✔I don't do fashion , I am fashion.
by ZhiYing Chong
Memories
유 Well, People has their own history , 유 don't stalk , be rational to read 유 .
유 Because it is not related to anyone 유 . And it does no matter with you . 유 Thanks 유
░BabyYing░
♏.Gucci
♏.Prada
♏.Swatch
♏.Mini Cooper
♏.Roxy
♏.SK 2
♏.Dior
♏.Estee Lauder *Mascara
♏.Iphone
10.HIM
♥All I wanted is him to come back my life.♥
Begin - End
I back to the place we started our 3and half years journey . Everything started at there , happening at there , processing at there too :) But it is not ended at there. I palyed basketball in the court , Looking around the palce we used to date. It is all the same, nothing change much. My mind is totally different , though . I used to wannna him accompany me every single moment. No matter where I went, He just stay with me . Am I being too sticky ? Yea, I affraid to lost him . That I used to .
Everything like a movie slides , performing in my brain .The moment , you hold my hand , and told me to give you an opportunity , The moment I cried over your shoulder , The moment I woke up 5 in the morning and prepared breakfast for you , The moment we shared our lil thing in the middle of night , the moment we sneak out and hang over the ipoh town. The moment we being in KL , shopping , playing and LOVING . I can't denied I miss that time . It is hard moment somehow it is sweet and happy.
I confused about myself, I don't know anything about myself. The life without you is sucks! I can't even eat ! I managed to transfer school .It is all so good about my new school . :) Everyone treat me so well in school . I felt so happy to stay in . I can't cry lately , I am just thinking , is it the quoter was over ? Am I crying too much for you!? I don't know. I need a big big cry !
I played basketball in the rain . It is fucking nice! Like I went back to standard six, I prefer live the more simple way . Happy and satisfication .. all the moment. What the hell of you to disturb my life for 3 years! U ruined everything out! You ruined it! You let me see so much thing which I dun wanna to see. Betraying , heartbrokening , trap, tircks , lies, cheat, used , so and so . I am the simple one. I just want my life happy and I cope with the thing I can cope with .
I screamed in the field then , I ran out the field . I scream "Let's everything end here . now!" I fell much more better . Like the burden really let gone. Smile :) I still me . For Chris , I miss him . I miss him so much . The one thing I ever regret is to let go him in my life. The one most regret thing Is to listen to you ! I shouldn't listen to you , I should go with him ! Ever! How come I just let go someone that so important to me. Even though I cried , I rag .. is it helping ? He is gone! Because of you!!!!! I just want him back ! But I knew he gone far.
End . Totally , I don't love you . Honestly, I think I had an crush on you , like what I treat my ex-bf . You are not the special one , Anymore. I don't hate you . I don't know why. I should hate
you , I think.
Just been drank with friend. It is doesnt like me at all .I suppose the one who make fun to the others. The 2 hours since 12am I sat there , drinking my beverage , talking so sad things until I cried . Because of something inside my mind dead ? Or I just acting right now? Or Ii just tired tonight ? I think I am just tired. jUST TIRED . Tommorrow I will reject all friend's date and be in home waiting to his call . I don't like to be a promisebreaker. He has been two weeeks doesn't call me , And I had a lot of things wanna threw to him . He and dear Bing , the most important person for me .
I affraid of friendship now. I don't know, I just seem have to build one thick wall inside my heart. I can't take it . The truth that came to me. I lost everything. I don't trust anything. Nothing will be important to me. I have to be strong. It is just doggy person , I don't have to mind about them and it is past. ng dui ng lei . as they teach me. :)
Zhi Ying Chong, you are came back . Like wat you told Bing just now,I wont in a relationship right now, even though ,I am just not that serious. because , the sacrifices is too big that I cant effort to take it. I start to be a playful one. Train myself as much as possible. And Zhi Ying Chong , Remember , what you have to do after one month. So, keep fit !
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