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Tuesday, June 29, 2010 | 5:51 AM | 0 comments
Is me! Zhi Ying is fully recovered ! lalalala I had been suffered by Mr.ill among 4 days! It is time to crazy !! Hooorreeey~~~ Anyway , Fellows , Take care ur healthy! Falling ill
Monday, June 28, 2010 | 4:07 PM | 0 comments
I had been fallen ill since 4 day ago . Today , I felt better so I on9 and update my blog . I dun noe wat happened to my body , it is just seem everything out of control. I though I will be fully recovered after I ate medicine . But, thing doesn't go wat I expected. I slept on the bed 4 days!! Mention : 4 days! I was like a OKU. I cnt even take my bottle, Omg. I hope I can recover , I dun wanna to be like this anymore. I am feeling faint. OMG . Bye.
Thursday, June 24, 2010 | 11:20 PM | 0 comments
I HAD BEEN thinking so long for the title of this post. But, all of I left is just " anyway , it is just a title for expressing my feeling ." I chatted with Yen Cheng again , a smart girl that always point a brightly way to let me feel comfortable and secure. She told me not to get back with him faster , try to hold it on , be friend first and then start our relationship after we deal . I din received his glance today, nor any stare . He seem really so enjoy about his single rocking life. Without me, he seem nothing but fine. He seem sad nowhere. I gotta told him "I love you Fucking tat much as last time I did " But, I have no fair to tell him , because he doesn't wanna to receive any sweet word nor promises. He dun wan my love anymore? This question keeping spring to my mind , Never stop. And it let me hesitate so long to figure out "Should I leave you ?" They told me that, You are a good lier and you never feel any guilty about what you hurt me of . I don't even trust what they told me, yet, Yen ching told me not to trust you soul and heart. Through and through, she highly recommend me to leave you , Because you are a jerk ! I HATE YOU! but I LOVE YOU ! I do really love you and I don't wanna to leave you . I can't wait to hug you , kiss you and tell you My stuff, No matter how unconcern you showed to me, I still wish to tell you . pLEASE , GET BACK TO ME ! 23/7/10
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![]() I had been hesitated a while when I click log in to this blog. Here contain a lot of our memories but all of this is , passing through the end. I wonder he love me either doesn't. But, this afternoon phone call is just let me struggle in the middle. I think I can't even forget him , nor putted him down. I am so hard to ignore him , Ken, U know, I love so much . Why we will went through the situation like this? What is the problem we having now? Should me solve it or either we avoid it , and keep our relationship like "stranger" ? I had a lot of question been with you , was the best live I lived, been with you , was the most memories appreciated .Been with you ?? I hope I can state "being with you" . but , I can't. Today , I cried in the class. I am so grateful that Yen Ching console me the time. I am really thank you for her. But , in his eye, I did it on purposely. I did everything on purposely. I din't!!! I really din!!! no matter what I should or exclaimed , he just think tat I am bluffing. I did everything for you , and i just do it follow my mind. I love you . I do love you . I made my mind to leave you , And I did past a paper to you. I knew u doesn't care. I knew U doesn't love me, But why I still noob to get back with you . Zhi Ying Chong, Do you know what are u doing ? U are pushing yourself to the middle of the highway , and U know there are a big lorry is opposite to you , why you still stand there. "Committed suicide " is your answer , deeply in heath . I had been slept since 3PM TO 4 AM . Yup, u had no wrongly , I did slept the whole day. I din even put anything into my tummy. I do, I do really , miss you!!!!!!!!! Please , Love me back , ok ?
Wednesday, June 23, 2010 | 8:37 AM | 0 comments
Whoots ! Finally done my Add-maths Project. It is killing people with using any instrument, mentally killer! Anyway , suck result let myself felt grown , I gonna be so hard now. And, the only thing that make my day is " i bought twilight saga Eclipse ! oMG!It cost me 50 ringgit ! I bring my books from popular and Novel Hut, and walk toward starbucks ! Omg!!! I love my life being so freestyle! Sleeping
Tuesday, June 22, 2010 | 12:01 PM | 0 comments
I am sleeping . I am still fooling around. Pity me . I had been so lame long time, It is time to wake up. I promised myself not to on9 on normal skulling days But , I am on 9 ing now! Damn. I slept the whole day today , from 5 pm to 12.30 am . Lolx. When I awake , I called my dear. He too.. I was like.. " We are meant to be ~!" LMAO I received a bad result
Monday, June 21, 2010 | 5:49 AM | 0 comments
Everything doesn't out of my expected . I received a fucking bad result . Anyway , I received it and I just told myself I should put more effort on it . Oh my gosh ! The result cause lots of my friends felt down , sad and even disappointed . I really can't accept it at once. Sure , "Failure is not acceptable!" I knew and I must get the best result at August!! Trial Exam , I am waiting for you !! Well, I gonna off right now . I should off and don't touch computer every normal school days . I trust, everything will be back to the origin . I gonna tell them , I am the best !! I am Back !
Sunday, June 20, 2010 | 6:19 AM | 0 comments
School reopen tomorrow . So yeah! I gotta start to back to normal life! A very hectic life!! I gonna try hard to my SPM ! Maybe Trail is the 1st text that I should prepare for! SO START NOW! Bloggie , we have a deal . I wil update u every Fri , Sun and Sat . And , The others day , fb is not allowed , PPS is not allowed . I WANT low weight , study hard and perform well ! Who am I!? Zhi YING! I should rmb .. Failure is not accepted now.
Friday, June 18, 2010 | 1:13 PM | 0 comments
Do your best , Be yourself ! Failure is not acceptable , Success is reasonable!
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I can't stand of those family without any freedom . Damn! Ok, I gotta start my blogging about what I facing right 5 minutes ago. I was went out with my gang and it is quite late , We date 10 and the guy who come and fetch me didn't shown up since it is already 10.30. Fine, I asked my dear came and fetch me . And he did. We went my fren's place a, after tat is out chat time. We crapped until it is 2 . I went bek with my dear. I felt kinda hungry and went another place to eat. Damn it! I received my sis's text that told me my parent were finding me ! OMFG! Damn it!!! How shamless! Hey , I am already 17 and I got my right to out rite!? I am not a toy please!!! I am a girl who is enjoying her sweet 17 ! And wat the fuck both of you giving me? A cage? wat the fuck !? It is so suck ! I am not a toy!!! I need ply! I need enjoy! Shit!! This let me confirm that I gonna out after I graduated secondary study . I will move out and not gonna bek !!
Thursday, June 17, 2010 | 10:11 AM | 0 comments
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I argued with him . Haiz
Wednesday, June 16, 2010 | 1:00 PM | 0 comments
Today is a quite special tuition day . I went omega late , and as usual , Sir asked us ‘why late ?” .. My usual answer “traffic jam .” Lolx. I forget wat he said later , but , I am sorry sir! It took few minutes to stand outside but luckily there got fans . After I got in , Sir came beside me and tease me for doing the job so fast , Actually 20 % of them was wrong, damn ! but he did teach and told my mistakes out . thx sir! I love you . When I standing outside, is was raining cats and dogs . OMG . I waited so long and finally my family came and fetch me to the UP – AND UP which held in kinta square. The building is nearby AMC , opposited of the building is a church and the restaurant is on the top of the building. The building is old and horror, the lift we lifted is kind of horror moive’s lift. Inside the lift was dirty and it is old style lift. When the lift reach the floor , it will vibrate and “gong” ! OMG~ I am shocked and shouted at once but my dad doesn’t bat an eye lid. How brave! After we went sidewalk , the raining never stop . Omg, the sky is crying too . Where are the angel ? Lolx. I got home about 11.30 Tuesday, June 15, 2010 | 10:01 AM | 0 comments
Normal day . I had been go thru very well with him ! Monday, June 14, 2010 | 7:43 AM | 0 comments
I’m going to start over again. I’m going to make this story short. I don’t remember the time when we first met, but I do know it was only a short time when he was with me. The sorrow we been through together and the time we shared together–they all seemed so short. When I think about it, it’s already gone. My name is Susan and I woke up today as usual. I look to the side of my bed today and hoped he was there, but…he wasn’t. Later I said to myself, “Oh…right….he’s not here anymore.” 5 years ago, he was still with me. He was the only person to have ever understood my feelings best and always sees through my lies. I thought we won’t be able to last long, but we lasted for a looong looong time. Even now we are still together.From time to time I thought he was giving me the pain, but instead he was the one suffering. When I think about it, I began to cry. He was a great guy. He never once complained to me and never once hated me. I never hated or once complain to him either. I thought we will be together forever, but the next thing I found is–sadness. The day before I was about to move, I told him I didn’t want to go, but , somewhat he gave me real bad attitude and told me he wants me to go away. I was sad and I ran away from him. Before I was about to board the airplane, my best friend came running and told me that he had an illness and kept it a secret from me ever since. She also told me that my father threatened him to let me go or else we wont see each other no more. I was sad to find out that he would lie to me for my sake. I ran out of the airport and went looking for him. But it was too late. I found him next to the place where we first met, a place where we will always be at. He was lying there, breathing hard. I was crying out for him while holding him in my arms. He was bleeding from his mouth. He looked at me and smiled. It was the first time I ever cried so bad that my heart bursts wide open. He then handed me a ring and told me that he wanted to give it to me a long time ago, but didn’t had the chance. He was wearing the other ring on his hand also. He asked me if I could marry him. I said yes. We were only 17 years old. With a smile, he told me, “Before I fall asleep, I want to see your smile once again.” I smiled and cried. I leaned over to kiss him. We kissed for quite a long time. Suddenly, his body was still. I remember that very day. I will not forget that time. I woke up and found myself 5 years later looking outside of my window. To tell you the truth I was having difficulties writing this story, I honestly didn’t know how to write it. It took mehours to write this. Since I cried most of the time when I write this. But in the end, I was able to write it without tears. I had never dated any guys since then because I still love him. The ring he gave me was still on my finger. To tell you the truth, you will always somehow love a person once. But to me, he was different. It’s because of the ring that kept us together. Somehow, I will always wait for him. He was my first and my last, no he was still mine. There will be no “last” to our love. Wherever he is or wherever he is at….I wish he could hear my message. To others he’s not there, but to me…he is still alive in my heart….and My heart I will always give to him Sunday, June 13, 2010 | 11:55 PM | 0 comments
Last midnite , I intend to call him and have a long chat with him. But, seem he not interested in my stuff. No matter is my fren, my problem , my family or watever , he just dun give fuck on it. Anyway , He does cruel to me , Why don't I cruel to him too ? I ain't his toy, when he need me, he just pick it up , and when hE IS bored, he throw it away . I AM SORRY . Sohai Ken Chau ! I am still myself. I am really dissapointed when you told me "YOU ARE BUSY !" FUCK YOU LARH ! I am gonna write my post here , everyday. and invite more viewers to let them noe HOW BAD YOU ARE!!!! I AM FUCKING SICK OF YOU! DIUNAIMACHOUHEI ! PLEASE GO HELL RITE NOW! I DON'T WANNA TO SEE YOUR SHITTING FACE ANYMORE
Saturday, June 12, 2010 | 11:41 AM | 0 comments
![]() I am speechless and stay in front of pc , crying and sobbing so long in bedroom. It is time for out and have some fresh air. Dad is watching Fifa world Cup, I am here , typing words out to express my feeling . The atmosphere is so peaceful , but me, ain't. Should I call you ? U have been long time din call me ? Don't you know I miss you ? I keep telling myself not to cry , but useless . I used to cry when I lose you . " Why do I cry ? " I asked myself . "Because You love him." A voice seem to speak softly to me over my back . If really, why don't he love me back ? Why Everytime I got hurt from his word ? Why ? You know , He just don't treat me as his world anymore Nor his wife . I wonder , when he kick me out from his world ? Why all of this appears without any realization ? Ken, I don't care either you love me or not , I still loving you . Because I remember the temperature when you hug me , I remember the voice that you call me Lou Po. Or you sing song to me . All of this is belong to me , but now , I knew you have another who is having all of this.I don't wanna to argue with you because you used to hang the phone up and not calling me anymore . I am always been silence , but it doesn't represent that I don't know what is going on . I am not silly as you thought. Pretending a silly but you strike over the line , U keep on telling me the truth .Ken Chau , I am hard to hate you . For there , everything have a lasting. When is our lasting? Tommorrow ? I don't know . But , I knew that.I am bored with your attitude . You need your freedom ! Go ahead ! good luck and bye Friday, June 11, 2010 | 5:58 AM | 0 comments
Two days ago , My mom took a letter to me and ask me to read it. I picked it up from the table and rode a carefully. Finally , I knew that it was a letter that sent from school and confirm my parent That I had been absent to school so many days . I am over the limit that school setted. The consequence that I will be face is I cnt get my sijil perhentian at the end of the year. So wat!? I DON'T GIVE FUCK FOR THIS! I better stay at home and se;f-studying . It is better than I am in school , facing those fucking sohai ! I am not pointing anyone, I just state out that, My classmate especialy males , that alw talk sumthing silly and enen nuts! Furthermore, They made the class messy and noisy like night market. I DON'T WISH IN SCHOOL ! SO WAT
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I am fallen sick . I awoke twice in row last nite . I ate some medicine this morning , But now. I still sick ! OMG KEN ..I need you now
Wednesday, June 9, 2010 | 10:44 PM | 0 comments
What is the big day of July!? No father day or ur my birthday ! Fifa world is a bridge that connect people that comes from different way and different race! So , It is a super big occation of us!! let's join!!! I am sure that I will take my pillow and blanket , sit in front of tv . And have my good time will my dad!We shout! We high! We blame! OMFG! I can't wait to friday !!!! Omg
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Me.. Zhi Ying Chong. I keep remind myself I am Zhi Ying Chong. I should have my own pretty life! I knew he doesnt the guy I wan anymore. He told me too. He will not change for me .. Lolx. maybe I should say, " he did not love me like what he did" I gonna be the girl bek. The girl who treat love like toy... I am going to be ... bcz U hurt me a lot
Tuesday, June 8, 2010 | 11:17 AM | 0 comments
I am zhi Ying Chong . It is still me ! Ken Chau is my husband. It is still my husband ! Everything go normal He came my house just now. I knew we have been quarrel these couple days. U found sandra, my best fren . I am sorry to heard that. But finally, I din made anything . I just.."let it go .." I am peace in mind. Just now u in my house, U said u gonna leave. I am so sad ... When u past the drink for me. I drank it. and dear. I LOVE YOU We played awhile and I wan u call me.. "queen " Lol "zhiying queen" mayb there are nothing for you. but for me. everything that u gave me is my precious. KEN CHAU ILOVEYOU
Monday, June 7, 2010 | 9:25 AM | 0 comments
![]() I sat in front of my computer, Fingers typing non-stop I am crying and waiting someone to call. Beside me is my home-phone and my cellphone I checked them every interval and I found disappointed. The media software is displaying some sad song, I sing the song soundless.. and tears drop soundless.. But, the voice of heart shout loudly My heart is falling apart to the floor. It is heart-rending atmosphere here. I have happy nowhere. I have sadness all over the place. I am waiting your call. But I knew you won't. Let's stop here. Let's stop here. Let's be tough here. I gonna be ok ,, right? yea..I trust myself. I can be tough . | 5:45 AM | 0 comments
![]() I Don't Lie myself from all of those Cheats ! It is enough for me to wake up right now this moment. I had a big fight with him just now, And now, I have no any mood to chat with any one. It is sad?? I don't know but , I didn't cry . Maybe I have my mentally prepare earlier. I afraid that you will leave, I afraid that you will gone , So I would give everything for you , through and through , But now , I should face this problem to you. Everytime I wanna to believe you, And I try to believe you. But I don't ! U care your friend more than me. You care your game more than me. I wonder .. If there any place for me in your heart? I bet ..nope! It is so hurt for me. But, Everything have it's ending. I know U wont calling tonight. I wont call back too. Let's calm for few days. We are ending .. We are through
Sunday, June 6, 2010 | 2:28 AM | 0 comments
I don't know wat is going with me now ? It is like, I wanna trust him but I keep on suspicious about him . Shouldn't I don't over suspicious ? I gotta low my weight right now. Seem like he really mind about my status .. Sigh
Saturday, June 5, 2010 | 5:04 AM | 0 comments
I found sumthing that relate to my fren .. If ur name here.. That means I love you! 1.好朋友就是经常叫你“去死吧”的那些人…… ping chong 2.好朋友就是老是说你有病叫你看医生的那些人…… 3.好朋友就是抓住你的一个缺点说上半天的那些人…… Ping Chong, Queenie 5.好朋友就是在你面前肆无忌惮地说很难听的话的那些人 …… Ping Chong , Qunnie 7.好朋友就是说要拉大队去你学校把你吃穷的那些人…… Ping chong, zhan yew 8.好朋友就是看着自己玩的很开心在旁边不参与也会觉得 很开心的那些人…… Ping chong 9.好朋友就是会教你怎么走路小心,过马路看车的那些人 …… 10.好朋友就是你考完试还晕乎乎的时候在你出现在你面 前嘻嘻哈哈,还说你不要怕,吸取经验,明年再考过的那些 人…… ping chong, li jing 11.好朋友就是跟你一起不分轻重可是对你父母毕恭毕敬 的那些人…… Ping chong , Qunnie , kelly yew 12.好朋友是平时恶型恶相,却在你遇到难事时语重心长 地开导你的那些人…… Ping chong 13.好朋友就是那些无论原本是忧郁,沉默或是乐观向上 ,在一起总是嬉闹声一片的那群人…… Ping Chong, Sandra Cheah 14.好朋友是你想起嘴角上扬的那些人…… Sandra cheah ,ping chong 15.好朋友是时间和距离都无法从你脑海,心中带走的人 …… Sandra cheah , Ping chong 16.好朋友就是听到你说了一句错话笑闹半天还要罗嗦上 一段时间的那些人…… Ping chong , Queenie Tai , Kelly Yew , Zhan yew Ng 17。好朋友就是不经常联系,但你还忘不掉的那个人! Sandra Cheah 18。好朋友就是俩个人在一起,你不用担心会说什么错话 。做错什么事的那个人! Sandra cheah 19.好朋友是你会突然想念的那个人! Sandra cheah 20.好朋友是无论谁湛诳诃一点便宜都不会计较的那个人 ! Ping Chong 21.好朋友就是和你同甘共苦。不会出卖你的那个人! Ping Cong , Sandra Cheah 22.好朋友就是什么事都会和你分享的那个人。 Sandra cheah 23.好朋友就是好久没见,在一起时还会和你套心窝子说 话,就像昨天刚在一起吃过饭的那个人! sandra cheah 24.好朋友就是和他在一起时你是最真实的你的那个人。 Sandra Cheah , Ping chong , Zhan yew Ng 25.好朋友就是很久没联系,见面也不会尴尬的那个人。 Ping Chong 26.好朋友就是无论你做了什么傻事。都会给你支持和信 任的那个人。 Sandra Cheah 27.好朋友就是……无论他做了什么,你也觉得他是你好 朋友的人! Sandra Cheah , Ping CHONG 28.好朋友就是半夜三更会和你一起纠结要不要睡觉的那 个人。 Sandra Cheah 29.好朋友就是在你面前会变得啰嗦,你会笑着说他像你 妈的那个人。 Kelly Yew , Queenie Tai 30.好朋友就是无聊时喜欢凑在一堆一起做无聊的傻事的 那些人。 Ping Chong , Chan Yew Ng 31.好朋友就是会和你在大街上丢脸会拽着你的手狂奔的 那个人。 Ping Chong 32.好朋友就是会跟你在无意间对视之后再跟你一块放声 狂笑的那个人。 Ping Chong 33.好朋友就是你会因为他的一句话而充满勇气与信心的 那个人。 Sandra Cheah 34.好朋友就是彼此之间喜欢恶作剧并且在恶作剧成功之 后两人都笑得很开心! Ping Chong, Zhan yew PS : Sandra Cheah !! I love you so muchieeee~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~` Ping Chong , U r my best ever fren!! Zhan Yew : Wow~ Miss to tease you ! |