♏.Prada

I read through the older posts of my bloggie. I just had exs that I dont even remember. I am wrong ! I am totally wrong ! I am looking for your forgiveness, Anyone , who will see me , Will feel that I am that kinda bad. In the pass years, I afraid to celebrate national day. because we always have quarrel in these festival. I remember form 4 , you just have a new gf , and we had broken up. I afraid to go school , I looked at you i the hall that time. You pretend like a stupid , looked to another way. And when we moved to the field to observe the demo of the fire man . The bitch just asked you to be her shelter . You did it tat time. I was remember, I look at you and use my eye to tell u , " You are suppose to be mine." I cried then in the toilet. Form5 , I was afraid because I always afraid to find friends. Because of you , I lost many friends. They dont like me ? hate me? anything, watever. pass. I just dont want to think it anymore .Booo ~ I back to the place we started our 3and half years journey . Everything started at there , happening at there , processing at there too :) But it is not ended at there. I palyed basketball in the court , Looking around the palce we used to date. It is all the same, nothing change much. My mind is totally different , though . I used to wannna him accompany me every single moment. No matter where I went, He just stay with me . Am I being too sticky ? Yea, I affraid to lost him . That I used to .

Everything like a movie slides , performing in my brain .The moment , you hold my hand , and told me to give you an opportunity , The moment I cried over your shoulder , The moment I woke up 5 in the morning and prepared breakfast for you , The moment we shared our lil thing in the middle of night , the moment we sneak out and hang over the ipoh town. The moment we being in KL , shopping , playing and LOVING . I can't denied I miss that time . It is hard moment somehow it is sweet and happy.

I confused about myself, I don't know anything about myself. The life without you is sucks! I can't even eat ! I managed to transfer school .It is all so good about my new school . :) Everyone treat me so well in school . I felt so happy to stay in . I can't cry lately , I am just thinking , is it the quoter was over ? Am I crying too much for you!? I don't know. I need a big big cry !

I played basketball in the rain . It is fucking nice! Like I went back to standard six, I prefer live the more simple way . Happy and satisfication .. all the moment. What the hell of you to disturb my life for 3 years! U ruined everything out! You ruined it! You let me see so much thing which I dun wanna to see. Betraying , heartbrokening , trap, tircks , lies, cheat, used , so and so . I am the simple one. I just want my life happy and I cope with the thing I can cope with .

I screamed in the field then , I ran out the field . I scream "Let's everything end here . now!" I fell much more better . Like the burden really let gone. Smile :) I still me . For Chris , I miss him . I miss him so much . The one thing I ever regret is to let go him in my life. The one most regret thing Is to listen to you ! I shouldn't listen to you , I should go with him ! Ever! How come I just let go someone that so important to me. Even though I cried , I rag .. is it helping ? He is gone! Because of you!!!!! I just want him back ! But I knew he gone far.

End . Totally , I don't love you . Honestly, I think I had an crush on you , like what I treat my ex-bf . You are not the special one , Anymore. I don't hate you . I don't know why. I should hate
you , I think.

Just been drank with friend. It is doesnt like me at all .I suppose the one who make fun to the others. The 2 hours since 12am I sat there , drinking my beverage , talking so sad things until I cried . Because of something inside my mind dead ? Or I just acting right now? Or Ii just tired tonight ? I think I am just tired. jUST TIRED . Tommorrow I will reject all friend's date and be in home waiting to his call . I don't like to be a promisebreaker. He has been two weeeks doesn't call me , And I had a lot of things wanna threw to him . He and dear Bing , the most important person for me .

I affraid of friendship now. I don't know, I just seem have to build one thick wall inside my heart. I can't take it . The truth that came to me. I lost everything. I don't trust anything. Nothing will be important to me. I have to be strong. It is just doggy person , I don't have to mind about them and it is past. ng dui ng lei . as they teach me. :)

Zhi Ying Chong, you are came back . Like wat you told Bing just now,I wont in a relationship right now, even though ,I am just not that serious. because , the sacrifices is too big that I cant effort to take it. I start to be a playful one. Train myself as much as possible. And Zhi Ying Chong , Remember , what you have to do after one month. So, keep fit !











I just went drinks with my friends . I met some brunch of friends there so I just spent my time with them . A gang of us , chatter louder in the mamak . And I just forgot about my lady attitude . We talked about the guy as the normal. I don't know , Why I will talked about him , I meant this Asshole! And I just found out one huge stuff that let me affair of and it just let me dropped in thought .

I so sad! I knew, I am sad . But I cnat cry . I am angry , but I knew I am going to do nothing. I knew, I am calm down now. Because. all of this will be gone. And it was gone . I dont have to recall the moment . Because , As I recall the deeper , more hurt I got.

I knew you are lier! I knew, but why !? Why you have to do this to me!? Why!? I am so sad! She is my best firend! How could you just.... how could both of you just did that kind of dirty thing! Why!? Why!? I am hurt . damn hurt. I got betrayed! I dont wanna back ss . I want go back ipoh

I am so great now~ I wanna to thank you to my fren . They helped me a lot in passing through my tough life. Bing is the first one I wanna. she alw be with me all the time . although she has been busy alw. TT.

bOON yong is the next. he is the one accompany me every week . sumdays . days . We hahaha.. sot sot dei . but seem he busy for something recently.. haiz.. he has been two weeks doesnt call me . :)

then is JC. she helped me so much . In chills. She alw scold me and encourage me. She love me, I love her

Xing keh
my bou bui .. also help me a lot.she just broken heart .hope she will be fine . love you fren

Joan.. ngek ngek .Baby ,I love you. I knew both of us has a bad memory . but, you know, I walked out. now is ur turns.

many others more that I cant remember and doesnt memtion . sorry yarh .But, as fren .I love yoy allll

PS. My classmates . Puvillan , he teased me always in class. He made everyone in the class laughed at me always . He like to say I am fat. He like to say I am stupid He like to tease me. anythings. The worst thing I encounter in my life is him .same to him . Hahah. but then , because of his jokes and teasing, he made my day

Honestly, without their teasing , without my classmates, wen xin ,kai xin , ar ti , ken , the guy sitting beside me . and the puan low, mr.lee ,and sir meoh . I dun know my life can be so fun and meanigful . Laughter in my life . Sadness dissapears. I have respondsible to do . A lot of things wating for me .

Ken chau , Bye bye, and sayu nana. .. ahahaha




Well , good news ! Hahaha. .. Ok, I am bringing my good mood to write this post.

Since I entered the chinese club on thrusday. I was wanted to wrtie an article for our magazine. Well, I wanna to write an article about my love stroy. I thought it wanna be sad and though . So ,I need to make myself so grieve. I tried many method , likes, viewing our old photos , his sent messages and so on . Yea, I did tried hard , but I just cant be sad! I am like, "it is just sumthing normal." ... OMFG.

Then , I wish to do something more cruel and crazy . I viewed their photos .I means, he and his new gf's photos . Omg, I got no feeeling .. but just.. "His gf is cheaper than me . At least , I came from famous school + I prettier. somemore, my standard is much more higher than hers. OMG . What the hell wrong I am doing ?I am no longer loving him !? The guy I spent the whole of my life!? My husband!? OMFG! you must be kidding me . Ji yien !? You are such bitch !!!! hahahah~

See, you brought such a good news to yourself in today 27/8/2011 . My release date! OMG! Why the hell going with me!? I got no any sad feeling yet scare feeling yet hate feeling yet uncomfortable feeling when I saw their shit photo! Hor! Hor! Hor! Grin ~ ngek ngek .

Well, I think , it is all because of I have a bunch of classmates really treat me well. Bully me .. tease me. laughed at me. That enhance my life. My new classmates really did a lot to me, and meant a lot to me. Because of them ,I can pull the tore in my heart. since I cant pull it in the past years. I treat him like. " trast" hahaha. Omg~ I dont love him1? I really dont!? Am I sure!? I am fucking sure I dont love him~ I cant believe! I cant believe!

Yea! I am so happy ! So, I am going to be a "" hmm .. seceret :) let's start my goal ~ AHAHAHAHA. Zhi Ying, You made a big stpes !!!
Tomorrow is the last day of this sememster. Lolx. I prefer call my school as semenster . Today I would asked to give a speak in front of my classmates , yea, they did laughed . But then , teacher also commented on my attitude. She said I am the kind of trust people easily girl. Yea, I admited. I received friend's ring today , it was about him and his new gf. I just depressed and gave out which I meant ,I dont care anymore .what he wanna do , go ahead. That's nothing relate to my concern . Just please , take your spouse get away from me ! We have nothing to do and we had not did anything before ! So , I would like to claimed that "I dont know about that guy! " ok? He is such a suck man just like his buddy ! rubbish gather with rubbish . damn . Instead of waiting around for things to change, how about we look at proper etiquette to observe as passengers? Assuming you're grasped the basics, here are additional "please don'ts" that you can take note of . As the badminton match between Lin dan and Lee chong wei is broadcasting , in addition , out primary minister announced that if Malaysia won , monday will be our school holiday. Soon ,this become an hot issue among malaysian. Without 5 minutes , my facebook's home page is full filled with " Lee chong wei you are the best " " Lost jor .TT" . Those kind of comments about Dato Lee. Some of them claimed that they mad at Lin dan ,some of them angry about lin dan because his attitude. Many of them very sad. But, I think the different way . 1.把醋和盐用水溶解，比例是大概水：白醋：盐＝9：3：1，用调好的混合液把毛巾润湿，擦在脸上，

早晚各一次，（如果要多擦个一两次也没问题啦），效果不错哦，而且见效很快，皮肤会变白，痘痘也会不见了．
2.用草莓炸成汁，放上蛋清。每2~3天擦一次


3.用水和蜂蜜调配后加入珍珠粉,这样用几次以后,脸是又白又嫩!


4.最简单最便宜最方便但是十分十分十分有效的美白方法（亲身体验)将香蕉弄成糊状

（一定是香蕉，不能用芭蕉代替），然后倒入全脂牛奶，再加入少量水。

这些东西的比例大概是2：5：1然后往脸上抹，然后轻轻拍打脸部，最后什么都不要做。

20分钟后洗掉...你发现了什么？？？？！！！是不是白了一圈？

美白小秘方 美丽大收集


1、牛奶美白：准备一小杯鲜奶，（夏天的时候,也可以把鲜奶到放到冰箱里,敷上凉凉的,会更舒服）。

用蒸气蒸脸,将化妆棉吸满鲜奶，敷在脸上十五分钟左右，取下，用清水将脸上的牛奶洗净。

长期坚持，可以使肤色白净均匀。


2、准备三指宽二指长的面带斑点的芦荟叶去刺洗干净，然后是一块三厘米长的黄瓜、&frac

14;鸡蛋清、2—3克珍珠粉、适量的面粉（用做调稀稠）。将芦荟、黄瓜放入榨汁机榨汁后倒入小碗，

然后放入蛋清、珍珠粉、适量面粉调成糊，以不往下流淌为准。把脸洗干净，将调好的糊抹在脸上，

干后洗净，拍上柔肤水、护肤品即可，每周1—2次。


3、蕃茄蜂蜜美白


这个美白配方可同时作脸及手部美白。特别是暗疮皮肤，能有效去油腻，防止感染，使皮肤白皙细致。


配方：蕃茄半个、蜂蜜适量。


用法：可将蕃茄搅拌成蕃茄汁后加入适量蜂蜜搅至糊状。均匀涂于脸或手部，待约15分钟洗去。

建议每星期做1－2次


4、将青椒、大黄瓜、四分之一苦瓜、西洋芹、青苹果等打成美容蔬菜汁来喝，这样的蔬菜汁里头有足够的维他

命 C，对于美白非常有效。
5、取新鲜鸡蛋一枚，洗净揩干，加入500毫升优质醋中浸泡一个月。当蛋壳溶解于醋液中之后，

取一小汤匙溶液掺入一杯开水，搅拌后服用，每天一杯。长期服用醋蛋液，能使皮肤光滑细腻，

扫除面部所有黑斑。


6. 蜂蜜蛋白膜；新鲜鸡蛋一枚，蜂蜜一小汤匙，将两者搅和均匀，临睡前用干净软刷子将此膜涂刷在面部，

其间可进行按摩，刺激皮肤细胞，促进血液循环。待一段时间风干后，用清水洗净，每周两次为宜。

这种面膜还可以用水释稀后搓手，冬季可防治皲裂。


7、中医美白：材料：白芷、甘草、核仁、当归、绿豆粉、檀香等分研末。


用法：
（1）洗脸：加适量的水，即可。


（2）敷脸：加蜂蜜，牛奶及1／4颗的蛋白，适量调敷于全脸(当然眼及嘴不可敷)，待干后再清水洗净即可。

一星期1～2次(不要太多次，皮肤会受不了)，可用于青春痘、黑班、雀斑，同样也可缩小鼻旁的毛细孔，

用过的人都觉的不错，皮肤变白嫩，又便宜。


8、材料:白芷6克；蛋黄1个；蜂蜜1大匙；小黄瓜汁1小匙；橄榄油3小匙。


做法:（1）先将白芷粉末，装在碗中，加入蛋黄搅均匀。（2）再加入蜂蜜和小黄瓜汁，

调匀后涂抹于脸上，约二十分钟后，再用清水冲洗干净。（3）脸洗净后，用化妆棉沾取橄榄油，

敷于脸上，约5分钟。（4）然后再以热毛巾覆盖在脸上，此时化妆棉不需拿掉。（5）等毛巾冷却后，

再把毛巾和化妆棉取下，洗净脸部即可。


9、 蛋清面膜：将蛋清打入碗内（去蛋黄）搅拌至起白色泡沫后，加入新鲜柠檬6－8滴，

搅匀直接涂在脸上，具有收敛皮肤、消炎抗皱的作用 Today , after I finished my tuition at first centre , I walked back to the bus stop that I went , after that, I saw two tourists who were asking another young lady who I think is younger than me about the bus to go for their destination. They wanted to go medan Gopeng and the young lady just cant answer their question. I then volunteer went in front and told them how to take their bus to go to the Medan Gopeng. I told them which bus to ride and how to deal with the problem and I just found out that my language is bad enough ! it is worst !
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